BWAAAAAA...

Not really anything else I can say and here's why: I have been eating right and exercising all week (yeah me). Then last night I went out with a good friend for a couple adult beverages. I was already hungry, but add a little alcohol to the mix and I was starved. On the way home....TACO BELL and then I proceeded to eat a TON of candy. I am not kidding you. I ball parked the calories this morning and estimate it was easily between 1500 and 2000 for the extravaganza.

Bottom line - I can't use the drinks as the excuse. I was hungry and made bad choices. The candy - for me that slides right on by the band. So doesn't matter if I am probably already full, it goes right on down. I just plain didn't want to and wanted to eat a bunch of crap. Well, mission accomplished.

The good news - I am back on track today. That's the trick - do it - get it over with - and get back on track. In all honesty though I did do the beat up thing this morning and then said to myself - GET OVER IT AND SHUT UP. Cause it is over and done with. Nothing can be done about it now. Sometimes the self-kick-in-the-ass is quite effective for me! HA

What did I have? Nachos supreme with extra beans and a ton of fire sauce (Taco Bell really is a weakness of mine), Reese's miniature peanut butter cups, and Cadbury's milk chocolate. MMMMMM-mmmm-good I tell ya!

So, I won't - or I shouldn't be - surprised if I have little to no progress on my weigh in on Monday. Just thought of this - I just had my Superbowl party early! There is a lot of crap at Superbowl parties and this year I have decided to just stay home so I can get some things done around the place at the same time.

I am busy sorting out the house today. My friend that was here helped me get the stuff that I had piled in the garage to the donation place this morning, so I am going through the rest of the house. I've lived in this house for 12 years and crap - crap that I don't need or use I might add - has piled up. I just want it out. So, if I workout today, it will be later. If I don't, then I will for sure tomorrow.

Here's my exercise so far this week:

• Mon - 80 mins
• Tues - 80 mins + 65 mins
  
• Wed - 120 mins
• Thurs - 70 mins
• Fri - 65 mins
• Sat - **
• Sun - **

**Workout at least one of the days.

Stayed the SAME!???

That's right people. No movement on the Santa weight whatsoever. So, I am still what I was the last time I reported in (142.5 lbs). Honestly, I am surprised. I thought I would see something. The funny thing is that I am in such better shape than when I was this weight before. My mile time is 6 miles in an hour no problem and can push it a lot of days for more. I don't subscribe to the "maybe it's muscle weight" theory as it takes a TON of effort for a female to put on muscle mass and I haven't been doing that kind of workouts. It may be possible though that my fat percent has dropped, because if the scale is right - which is only one measurement people! remember that - my clothes at the pre-Santa weight (135.5 lbs) fit just fine. I would expect that a 7 lb swing would make my clothes tight and that honestly isn't the case. Anyway, who the heck really knows right? Reminder to self - it's only one measurement. Tons of factors could be in play: hormones, water, etc. Just keep on keeping on that's what I have to do and am going to do.

I'm also having some surgery in early March that will take me out of commission for some time on the workout front. I'm not positive yet how long the recovery is, but I would like to get to 134 by the surgery if at all possible. My concern with the surgery has to do with the downtime and the potential for me to not only get outta shape (inevitable), but put on some weight (just not sure what is going to happen). I'd like to be at the lowest weight by then to help manage any weight gain. I will try to monitor and eat what I am supposed to (bandster food), but the reality is that it could very likely be a HUGE struggle.

Well...

I got ready - gym clothes on, shoes, iPod - the whole deal. Then work hit again. So by the time I got all the work stuff wrapped up I only had an hour to get ready. So no workout on Friday. No workout on Saturday or Sunday either (when I am out of town with the guy that is just the reality. No workouts on Sat/Sun)...weigh in tomorrow should be interesting. My clothes are fitting fine, but I'd like the scale to be down. Plus, I'm 70 days out from my goal of being at 134 lbs. Look for another report tomorrow with the weigh in stats.

PLEASE please please weight loss fairies don't let me down! (And yes, I am a dork.) Here's the exercise stats...

• Mon - 65 mins
• Tues - 65 mins
• Wed - 65 mins
• Thurs - 65 mins
• Fri - Off
• Sat - Off
• Sun - Off

Since I am back home for the next 20 days I should be able to get my workouts back up a bit. Looking forward to some downward progress.

Procrastinating...

That is officially what I am doing. How do I know? I have worked past the time I was supposed to and have now cleaned the house. Why? Cause I didn't go work out this morning and now don't want to. I am trying to get myself to go and thought that maybe - just maybe - if I blogged about it that it would get me there.

My guy didn't have to go to work until mid-day. He said to me - why don't we go to the gym in the morning? (I normally just go.) I said - OK, if you are really going to, great. Cause it's Friday and if I don't get it done, then I won't want to. (hmmm, self-fulfilling prophecy???).

Anyway, guess what? Didn't happen. Asked him about it, then I started working. Asked again and then guess what? Time for him to go to work and no gym! GRRRRR - MEN!

So, here I am thinking about how I should go, but how I don't really really wanna.

Reasons to go:

• Santa weight (which I don't know where I am because I couldn't weigh in)
• Drinking tonight
• Won't workout tomorrow and can't Sunday because I am traveling back to TX
• Eaten OK all week, but exercise is not what it was which would be fine if eating was more than OK.
• Santa weight
• Cause I should
• Did I say: Santa Weight?
• I have to be ready by 6pm. With 1 hour to get ready - which I don't even need that much time - that leaves an hour to workout.
• I'll be glad I did afterward

Reasons not to go:

• I don't wanna

Well needless to say the reasons to go outweigh the not. But I am not making any promises. Dang it! I don't wanna! (Had to get that last little tantrum out)

Exercise so far this week:

• Monday - 65 mins
• Tuesday - 65 mins
• Wednesday - 65 mins
• Thursday - 65 mins
• Friday - TBD
• Saturday - Most likely a no.
• Sunday - Traveling - OFF

Weekly Weigh In

Well, I'm not home with my scale, so not weighing in. Scale differential is just not a good thing. I did eat well all week, exercise was OK, and did some drinking (but also a lot of dancing). I'm hoping that the scale will reflect it next week when I weigh in.

I had mentioned in a previous post that I thought there was a chance that I needed to fill. NOPE. I just need to eat what I am supposed to eat (no soft foods and hard protein) and things have been going fine. I am optimistic that I have made some progress against the Santa weight.

It's good for me to fight the urge to stand on the scale here. So, I am thinking it is a good exercise for me. I've been wondering - do women have a 'scale obsession' gene? bwwaaa

Hope everyone is doing well. I also need to catch up on everyone's blogs.

Exercise

• Monday - 65 mins
• Tuesday - 65 mins
• Wednesday - Travel - OFF
• Thursday - 65 mins
• Friday - 65 mins
• Saturday - OFF
• Sunday - OFF

OMG! Weekly Weigh In

You have got to be kidding me?? The scale must be broken. Um nope, it is Santa weight and it isn't broken AND it isn't 6 lbs. It is SEVEN. That's right people - seven-frickin-pounds. I can feel it and I can see it. Best friend says no way. I said, who is gonna lie???? I am at 142.5 from 135.5 on my birthday in December. Yes, it sucks and yes it is also a bit depressing. AND yes I am venting! I have to get it out.

I must continue to eat like a bandster (just got back on track) - avoid soft foods and most importantly avoid crap. I swear I got into a habit for a few weeks of eating around the band. Bad, bad, bad. I'm going to eat the right food and the right amount and see how things go. I honestly was feeling very hungry as well. Possible (and likely) reasons:

• I was eating crap - high sugar / high carb - body wants more, more, more!
• I was eating too much and have stretched my pouch. Had a couple bouts of heartburn.
  
• I was eating the wrong food. Too many soft foods. Therefore I wasn't feeling full.

I'll see how it goes. I really think it was all of the above. Well I have to go and watch some 'crack' TV. That's what I call TV shows that are train wreck, once you start watching them you can't stop. So, I'm off to watch Momma's Boys. (Big time hilarious train wreck. Where do they find these people??? And, hello? Why the hell am I watching! HA!)

Tomorrow...

Yep, I have to do it. Get on the scale tomorrow and find out my weight. FACE THE MUSIC WOMAN! I doubt I have much of a change and am anticipating that it will still reflect the "Wii Weigh In" of 141.5 lbs---oh please, do NOT let it be worse. A 6lbs gained from where I was before the Santa weight 135.5 lbs. (OMG - I would be sooooo glad if by some miracle it was a number starting with '13', but not going to get my hopes up...just going to say a little wish to the weight loss fairies.)

Oh well, as I've said over and over - it is what it is. Just brush myself off and get going again. I took it easy this week exercise wise because of my Wii injury (nope - seriously was not kidding about that).

Planning to get back to more of a normal workout level this week. Here's the exercise summary:

• Mon - 60 mins
• Tues - 60 mins
• Wed - OFF
• Thurs - OFF
• Fri - 60 mins
• Sat - OFF
• Sun - 60 mins

LOVE THIS STUFF!!!! Aquafina ALIVE

OK - You have to check out this new water from Aquafina (made by Pepsi/PepsiCo). This stuff is A-W-E-S-O-M-E!

There are 3 varieties available. Yeah, yeah - the pic shows 4, but I can only find 3 of the 4. Here's my free commercial for them on these...

• Energizer (Orange / Lime Flavor). Sounds weird, huh? Well it tastes GOOD! I was kinda scared it would taste too much like lime. Nope! Zero calories in this one, but the Energizer part is from the caffeine. So, be warned - it's like drinking a cup of coffee, but better for you (my opinion) but supported by the fact that they threw in some B vitamins.

• Protect (Berry Pomegranate). Now, to be fair. You put pomegranate in water and I'm a happy girl. So, I may not be the best judge on this one. Again, zippo calories. Running low on antioxidants? This one has E and C vitamins. How much? Not sure - probably on the website. (I'll let you guys go check that out if you want to.)

• Satisfy (Peach Mango). This one I can't find! I want it, want it, want it! (Tantrum is officially over.) This one has TEN calories, but guess what? It's from FIBER!!! Rock-on!!! I have a hard time getting in enough fiber. This way I get fiber and water in one go. Let's be real people - you'd have to drink TEN of these to get to 100 calories, so I am just fine with the 10 calories. I'm on the hunt for this one.

If you decide to try this out, let me know what you think!!!

Wee Little Confession

OK, it is really a Wii confession, but I'm an idiot. When I was playing with the Wii Fit for multiple hours with my friend, I got this GREAT big (stupid) idea to race the pacer (jogging game on Wii Fit). This would have been fine if I had on my running shoes instead of bare feet or have cheated the Wii by just using my arms. Did I do either? Helllllll no! So, I managed to injure my calf. Yep, a Wii Fit injury. How stupid is that??? Anyway, I was just hoping it would go away, but it hasn't. I'm fine really, but having to take it easy at the gym to prevent further injury. I decided I must stick to the eliptical and only an hour max a day. When it is gone, then back to harder and longer workouts.

I am sooo not kidding you if you can get into a workout routine and NOT stop, it really becomes a habit. I missed how good I felt after a workout, better spirits, etc. AND, it also helps control my eating. I have heard that from others as well. There is something about a workout that at least for me reinforces good choices. (No workout and for some stupid reason I will make a bad choice must easier.)

I am hoping that I'll make downward progress from what I am referring to as my 'Santa Weight'. (I think that's funny.) I am going with the Wii (not so wee - ha) weight gain that I posted as I just didn't want to deal with it if it was more ---- more than SIX pounds???? I will be weighing in officially on Monday - this post is my official reinforcement to myself. Self: get to the gym and make good choices! You WILL be officially weighing in on Monday.

2009 has been very good to me on the work and guy front (uh huh - and I like him a lot). In fact, so good that I am wondering if it will continue. Let's just say that the past two years have been very tough ones. I am a bit skeptical from those two hard years. I am not skeptical that I will get to my 134 lbs within the 90 days that I set as a goal for myself. That is in my COMPLETE control and I WILL do it...I think at goal that I will get myself a Wii and Wii Fit!

Tomorrow Back On Track

I've definitely taken a vacation from the gym for the past week and pretty much the week before. Oh well, I think the break was good and plan to just start up again tomorrow with the bajillion other resolution makers. :-) I guess I'll go a bit earlier cause from now until March the gym will be packed. Around here, the gym will drop back down around March.

Not sure if I will weigh in or not tomorrow on official weigh in day. My friend got a Wii and Wii-Fit for Christmas. Messed around with that a ton and part of the setup for the Wii-Fit is body analysis. According to that I have a lovely 6 lbs gained from where I was prior to the holiday season. I have decided to say, 'Oh well' and just get back on it. My fingers are crossed that I'll see an initial fast drop, but who knows. It is what it is. I swear I didn't eat enough extra calories for that much of a gain in such a short period, but add to that just the general diet change and lack of exercise with my sloth metabolism and it very well might be possible. Reminder to self - oh well. Just get back on it. Weight is a life long struggle with or without the band.

So tomorrow - back to the gym, eating right, and getting back on track. MY GOAL to make myself 'officially' accountable: To be at 134 in 90 days or less from January 5. This is extremely achievable and realistic. In fact, I really should be able to do it in 60 days, but decided to set the official goal at 90 days. Goal after that is to maintain within 2 lbs on either side and need to put more time into thinking about that, but will do that when I'm closer.

I hope everyone's holidays were great and I wish everyone a very happy, healthy, and prosperous new year!