Thursday, July 29, 2010

Protein smotein...

I'm gonna say it....I have never counted protein grams. Ever. Why? Because I had lap band surgery. I didn't want to have to worry about counting things or taking vitamins (UGH, I hate pills!). Measuring I could live with. Here's what I was told (with a few of my own gems thrown in for free!)
  • Always eat the correct portion sizes. Why? Don't do it enough and you might dilate your pouch. Heck for me, I wasn't even eating the correct portion sizes (meaning I couldn't) at one point and still managed to dilate my pouch. Here's a past post on it. (I'm really not trying to scare anyone, just sharing my personal experience which was I was eating very little and had reflux / heartburn which increased over time. Problem? Too tight.) And another favorite post on fills. And yep, I used to be a tester too - here's that post.
  • Don't drink while eating period. Why? It flushes your pouch. Now you aren't supposed to be so tight that food just sits in there for a long period of time, but it does take time for it to go through. I drink all the way up until I eat and then wait at least 30 mins to have something to drink after I finish. Do I do this ALL the time? Hell no. If I'm out having a nice dinner, then there's wine. No wasting of wine here - although I tend to just finish what I still have upon receiving my food and not having anymore unless the 30 mins has past.
  • Make good healthy food choices (variety, variety, variety) and eat protein first most of the time. This was important for me - cause sometimes protein just makes me want to barf. Yep, it does. I'll look at a piece of fish, chicken, or beef (I'm equal opportunity) and think - Yuck, I don't want to eat you. So, I'll eat a couple bites, but I'll eat the beans or grilled zucchini on my plate instead and that's OK. There are no absorption issues with the band. I don't take vitamins either. (My blood work shows no issues.)
  • Don't eat to feeling full. Goes back to the first one on amount of food, testing, etc. etc. What's your soft stop? Sigh? Hiccup? Burp? Nose run? Unconsciously start picking and moving your food around? Figure it out. When it happens - STOP.
  • If you're hungry, eat something. Hungry between meals? Ensure that it is 'real' hunger vs. 'head' hunger. Good choices = real. Bad choices = head (usually - meaning maybe it's an emotional thing going on). If good, then have a snack. Feeling hungry is OK!!! Really, it is. If you are working out a lot, you are going to get hungry. Eat something nourishing and move on. I eat 3-5 times a day depending on my hunger level. Again - do I always make "good" choices, hell no. Last night I wanted frozen yogurt with chocolate sprinkles and chocolate covered raisins. So I had it and enjoyed every last bite of it!
  • Exercise a minimum of 3 times a week for 1 hour. Exercise makes me feel GOOD. I feel strong and healthy. When I don't exercise I feel "off" and "grumpy". I remind myself of this more and more often. I currently exercise - as in the strictest sense of "this is exercise time" - 5 times a week. 
  • The scale is only a number and does not dictate how I feel. (In other words: Scale you are NOT the boss of me!) A zillion factors can make the scale fluctuate. Believe me I was focused on the loss too, but it got out of control. I moved to weighing in weekly period. And, I beat it into my head that other measurements such as clothing size and fitness level DO matter. For a long period of time my body was shifting (not a medical term in case you were wondering). I was shrinking, but the scale wasn't moving. The scale did eventually move, but even now while I have lost a few more pounds my body has changed much more significantly than the scale indicates.
  • One caveat, let's be real. There are times when we all KNOW that we have gained weight. And I'm not talking about when my behavior has matched the items I've listed here. I'm talking about like the time that I KNEW I had gained weight because I was eating a shitload of candy. So I avoided the scale. I was on a boat going down de-nial. My advice - hop on. See the damage. Don't rationalize. Embrace it as being human and move on.
  • Maintenance is hard. Losing is hard. Summary: the journey is hard. You know the saying: the band is a tool. It's in your toolbox for you to use. While I say it's hard, I do think it gets easier over time. This year is easier than last, etc. (I should caveat this by saying during the losing phase it was a roller coaster of easy / hard / easy / hard for me. At some points I was frustrated as all get out!)
  • NO negative talk. Read that? No as in N-O-N-E. I bet this is hard for pretty much everyone. Give yourself a pat on the back now and then. Seriously look at what you have accomplished. No matter how much you have lost, you know what? You lost. You gained weight on a weigh in, BUT not because of things you did. (Gained 2 lbs - did you really eat an extra 7000 calories??? My guess is no.) Celebrate that you followed the bandster rules. Celebrate that you walked 5 or 55 minutes. Celebrate that a pair of pants you couldn't wear last month you can now. You had a cookie? Did you ENJOY it? If not, then it wasn't worth it - remember that next time. But if in hindsight of eating that cookie were you beating yourself up, maybe that's why you didn't enjoy it? What would have happened if maybe you just enjoyed the one cookie? Maybe that one cookie would have been enough?
  • And most importantly to each and every one of you - YOU ARE WORTH IT. It really is OK to make YOURSELF a priority. And, YOU CAN DO IT! (I know you can.)

I'm still trying to get pictures together and figure out how to do "now" pics, but while I was trying to find the posts I referenced, I stumbled across this. I'm currently 10 lbs lighter (OK 11, but who's counting? Hey, I'm human!) and two sizes smaller than this picture.)

Wednesday, July 28, 2010

Freak Show in Town!

Imagine my surprise when I looked down this morning during bootcamp and saw this:

OK, a bit of an exaggeration, but honestly not by much. I am wearing some different shorts to work out because it's about 8 billion degrees and the humidity is 8 trillion percent. With that came a bit more skin for me to look at. So while doing this calf stretch:

(Uh no, that's not me. I really am a chick. I used a dude because I thought there wouldn't be any confusion that way.)

I looked back and saw - to my HORROR - these wrinkly elephant knees. Seriously NOT pretty. But skin casualty - if we forget the fact of my BOOBS which have a hard time filling a B cup (yes, B cup and yes, I'm still quite bitter) - for having lost over 100 lbs has not been significant (oh, and that I'm 41). And yes, I did glance around to see if anyone else was looking, but thankfully these bootcamp chicks are into their stretching and don't seem to notice this new freak show in town.

It's not often in everyday life  (OK never) that I find myself busting out this move, so I'm not going to worry about it, but I can't promise that I won't have an internal shudder when the freak show presents itself at bootcamp again. But when the freak show does come to town, I will remind myself of the fact that my wrinkly elephant legs can run a long distance, are strong (even have mus-cles showing), and while wrinkly in certain positions are completely normal in size.

(Image sources: and

Monday, July 26, 2010

Where oh where did that band blogger go?

In reading everyone's BYOC postings, I thought about the question about do you lie on your blog. I don't lie, but I do leave a bunch of personal stuff out. It's the only way I can have my blog and retain my anonymity. At times it can be hard, but my blog is to record my journey with the lap band for myself and as a resource (used loosely) for others.

While I recognize that my posts don't necessarily talk about the band per se as much anymore, it bugged me when bloggers that were banded left...or probably better said as "disappeared". And, there was also a gap back in 2005 of finding blogs that chronicled some longer term success. Some bloggers left prior to hitting goal, some ending on high notes and others not so much, but some bloggers hit goal and then said "adios", they were going off to live - no time to blog. Well honestly, I'm living. I have been living through this entire journey. I just try to take time out (more so this year every week) to stop long enough to put out a post. This journey never ends. I would say my focus is less and different, but it's still there.

For me, I knew I could hit my goal. It's not a cocky statement - it's part of my yo yo history and I'm really not proud of it. Bottom line I wasn't able to ever keep the weight off. I was the statistic of losing the weight, but putting it back on with some bonus pounds. The band was another tool in my arsenal in my personal struggles with weight, emotional issues, and depression. The band has forced me to be "present" when I am eating. There's just no way not to be and in hindsight I am not sure I ever was prior to being banded. There are a whole slew of other changes - I should probably think more on that for a different post as they are hard to put into words on the fly, but I think an important exercise.

Every now and then, I wonder how these people doing are doing. Did they make it? (I hope so.) Have they maintained? (I hope so.) Have they also encountered struggles and challenges whether they hit goal or not? (I'd guess they have.). So I'll keep blogging, checking in, reflecting, and reading...

All weekend I was in a reflective sort of mood, so I was looking at the few "before" pictures I could locate. It's so hard to believe that my life (and hence weight) was that out of control---maybe just sad more than anything else. All I can say is WHOA!

In the coming weeks, I'm going to try and attempt to put together a collage to put out here. While the changes on the outside are significant, I am just as proud of the changes on the inside. The inside changes are likely the ones that have cemented my success this time (man, it's hard to say "I'm successful" - I need to work on that I guess--I get embarrassed more than anything) and resulted in bonus weight loss.

Last Week's Exercise Round Up from Polar:
  • 7 hours 2 mins
  • 3765 calories

Friday, July 23, 2010

Restriction? Tight? Not Tight? OH MY!

I read a ton of blogs in Google Reader...many many more than I follow. I repeatedly read about fills, not being tight enough, restriction, etc. But hey - they are lap band blogs right?

Maybe it's that I have been banded a while or maybe it was my personal experience with being too tight, not really realizing it, and dilation of my pouch, but I tend to be sensitive to the "search for restriction" and find myself thinking when reading "you're too tight". I guess I'm a firm believer that you should be able to eat most things...especially the important things like non-liquid hard protein and not be drinking your calories.

The band shouldn't be restricting what you eat as much as helping you with your hunger (real hunger not head/emotional hunger). I find that by eating the correct amount of food (please note this is VOLUME not necessarily WEIGHT) and eating when hungry (even if that means more than the "prescribed" 3 times a day) that I stay within my set weight range and don't feel like I'm on a diet or deprived. As long as the food is prepared well (not overcooked) or I don't have too much of something like bread or pasta, I don't have any issues.

And, of course, I still have cravings. And, of course, I give into them, but cravings for me are usually emotional - there's something else going on with me and I am trying to hide behind some crap food. Other times, it's just that I want something decadent and have found in this "true" non-emotional scenarios that if the high calorie food doesn't taste good that I won't eat it. Go figure?

Anyway, I'm not sure the point of this post really. Other than I read this article on someone's blog (sorry! I can't remember which one) and it pretty much reflects my thinking and wanted to put it here for others to read and ponder. (Bandster - if you're out there, please take credit for this great find in the comments! I bookmarked the site to read future newsletters, but not the post.)

Here's the article: (source: Dr. Terry Simpson - It's Not About Restriction)

The Lap-band is NOT about Restriction
When talking about the band, some patients talk about restriction. Let's first be clear about one thing: the purpose of the band is not restriction; the purpose of the band is to lose weight by suppressing the appetite.

When band professionals talk about restriction we are talking about something totally different than "restricting what a person eats." In fact, many band surgeons avoid talking about restriction so as to not confuse patients. The band works by dimming the appetite, and this provides a conscious control and decision made by the patient, it does not work by "making" a person do something, or keep them from eating too much.

The Lap-band works by suppressing your appetite
As a result, you are less interested in food between meals, making it easier to resist temptation. The analogy is when you are near a vending machine when you are hungry-- what do you do? Probably find yourself with some junk food that is not a part of your plan. But, when you pass a vending machine when you are full, it may not even catch your eye. Having the appetite dimmed makes you less tempted by the many food choices modern living throws at you - -this is what the band does, by suppressing appetite you become less interested in food.

What you should not feel, with the band, is the sensation of being "stuffed."
When you eat Thanksgiving dinner, you can feel stuffed. Contrast that with the sensation two hours after you eat your big meal, at that point your appetite is suppressed. It is the subtle dimming of the appetite that the band should provide. Being stuffed after a large meal is a complicated sensation of the abdominal wall stretching and a lot of gas in the bowel, in addition to feeling a diminution of appetite. You will not, and should not, feel the abdominal wall stretch with the band. You should not feel the "near nausea" and you should not feel bloated.

Key point: You should NEVER eat until you feel full. It is best to stop eating before you "feel full." If you do eat until you feel full you will most likely be overstuffed. This leads to the universal key to success -- patients who eat a small volume of food (which, if you measure, is consistent) will be successful with the band. If you want to succeed, you need to know how much you are eating, and then stop eating -- it is in your control, but the band will help you -- not by stopping you, but by allowing you to feel satisfied after the small volume.

Early on, most Lap-band patients do have a sense of "restriction"...particularly after the first fill. When we place the band on a patient the stomach above the band typically will hold one to two ounces (by volume, not by weight). The stomach has a lot of muscle fibers, and the wall of the stomach is fairly thick. When food is consumed, it arrives in the pouch, and meets some resistance, first against the newly adjusted band, and then against the stomach which does not stretch easily. People love this feeling! It is a sense of control over food -- a leash. But it is not permanent. It makes it difficult to eat more, because the top part of the stomach and the band will resist it. If you over eat you will feel uncomfortable.

This is the honeymoon phase, you feel full with less, no appetite, and if you try to eat more it doesn't work. They eat a small amount of food, they feel satisfied, and they are losing weight.

For patients who rely on this sensation, they will find it will take ever increasing volumes of food to obtain this sensation. The initial response is to have their band adjusted so that they can "feel full again." Against a tighter band, the upper stomach stretches a bit (and if they eat fast it stretches more)and they again have the sensation of "feeling full." This becomes a cycle, a tighter band, the stomach stretches more-- and then instead of going back to its original size, the stomach stretches more and more to where it takes more to fill it.

The person who continues to eat until they have this sensation, will find that it takes more and more food to obtain this feeling. Two things happen -- first the stomach stretches to where it accommodates more food, and to stretch it means you have to eat more. The second is that to "feel full" it takes the brain time to register this sensation -- this is not the sensation registered by the hypothalamus, but registered in the conscious cortex. So your stomach can be full, but your brain won't register it for a while, and if you keep eating you can overeat. As a result, the pouch dilates. Similar to a balloon, when you first start to blow up the balloon it takes a bit of force. As you continue to fill the balloon, the wall of the balloon stretches (thins out), it is easier to blow it up -- the same is true with the upper pouch. Early on, before the pouch is stretched, it takes a little bit of food to cause it to stretch, but with chronic over-eating the pouch will accommodate more and more food. The stomach wall is thinner, it is easier to stretch, and to get that sensation it takes more food than at first. Often patients will complain that they "don't feel restriction," and wish to have the band made tighter.

There are two potential results to this: one is the patient will passively stretch the stomach and esophagus and not be eating a small amount of food. These patients simply do not lose the weight that the surgeon expects. The other is that the band will be forced down the stomach, the band will slip, which generally requires operative intervention to reposition it.

For those patients who are rigorous about the volume of food they eat, and do not let the stomach to tell them when to stop eating - they do very well. This is one of the keys of successful patients, only eat a certain portion of food - period. If the band is properly adjusted, the appetite will be dimmed for several hours. Once your brain realizes that a small amount of food keeps you satisfied, then your eyes will adjust to the amount you eat.

Some describe a "soft stop." Where before a sense of fullness occurs, there is a signal from your body -- this can be a runny nose, a sigh, or a subtle ache in the left shoulder. Patients who find this "soft stop," do very well with the band.

The other advantage of eating small portions is it becomes a lifestyle change--you will have the ability to gauge the amount of food you can comfortably eat, knowing it will keep you satisfied for several hours.

You can always -- always, always, always, -- eat more food, because, contrary to what we believed for a long time-- food passes by the band within a minute and then into your stomach. But the key to successful patients is not how much they can eat, but how little they can eat to suppress hunger.

The band goes around your stomach, not around your brain, or your lips
This simple concept, of eating a specific volume of food -- eating it slowly, and then walking away, is the key to successful eating habits of patients. This means that the band works with effort from you -- not by it doing everything for you. You have to make the decision to eat a small volume of food, and let the band work with you.

The sensation that we would want the band to produce is the "soft stop." The soft stop is when you eat a small portion of food and walk away. Sometimes this is difficult, like most things, practice makes perfect. To set yourself up for success -- we recommend you use smaller plates, along with smaller utensils. If you go out to eat, ask for the to-go bag immediately, and remove the excess food from your plate. You can physically always eat more food, but the advantage about practicing small portions and walking away, is ultimately your eyes will get use to what the stomach is telling it, and it will be much easier to eat smaller portions as time goes on.

It isn't uncommon for patients to want an adjustment because they say they can eat more

The first question we ask is, "Why are you eating more?" The typical answer is, "Because I can." The typical response, "Just because you can does not mean you should." Since the band's job is not to restrict the amount of food you eat, do not leave that to chance -- that is your job. Part of personal accountability is to account for, to measure, to know how much you are eating at a time. The band is empowering; if you eat an appropriate amount and make appropriate food choices, you will be satisfied for several hours. This results in either weight loss, or weight maintenance (if you are at your goal). The purpose of the band is to assist you to lose weight -- and this occurs only with active participation by you: you chose what to eat, you choose how much to eat, and you practice walking away after eating that amount. The band is a tool to allow you to eat less and have your appetite dimmed resulting in weight loss, or maintenance. It is a tool to help you adopt a healthy lifestyle -- you still have the choices to make, but the band allows you to be satisfied with those choices.

"If I could eat less and walk away, what would I need this band for?" -- a common question we are asked. Without the band, if you eat a small amount of food and walk away your appetite would rise within a couple of hours -- you would find yourself hungry and wanting more food, possibly leading to unwanted snacking. You would also find, if you willed yourself to withstand the hunger, that your weight loss gradually decreases. The band fools your brain into thinking you ate more.

Think of it another way -- the hypothalamus does not have eyes -- it doesn't know how much you ate, it doesn't know if there is a lot of food around and you are not eating it, or if there is a band on your stomach. The hypothalamus reacts very simply to the stimulation provided by the upper part of your stomach. Stretch that thermostat, it thinks you are eating a lot -- do that consistently over time, and it behaves as if you are eating a lot all the time and will allow your body to release fat stores and not cause your body to go into a metabolic slow-down. Conversely -- if you go on a diet, without the band --and that part of the stomach is not stretched, your hypothalamus thinks you are in a famine -- it doesn't know that there is a lot of food around you.

The purpose of banding is weight loss. Patients who are successful do not "feel tight," or "feel restricted." Instead, successful patients report that they rarely have an issue with the band, they do not "feel restriction." Successful patients come for adjustments when they notice that their appetite is returning between meals -- patients who are not successful rely upon the band to tell them when to stop eating.

The band, in successful patients, is empowering. While, on occasions, the band is "fickle" the proper way for the band to work is for it to allow you to eat less and not be moved by an appetite.

There is another group of Lap-band patients who do not like any sensation of restriction--a group we call volume eaters. They want to eat a lot, when they want to eat, and they do not like the sensation of a "hard stop." Nor does this group want to eat a small volume and walk away and allow their appetite to be suppressed. One patient even asked for pills for nausea, because she could not eat "a quart of chili." Yes, this person thought a quart was a normal serving size -- not a cup, a quart! Sometimes these patients come in for an adjustment, then come back thinking that the band is too tight, because when they overeat they become acutely uncomfortable, or feel as if they are "obstructed." Often these patients will come in for a fill, then an unfill, then another fill.

It does take a bit of work to change a person's perspective about the volume of food they eat. For some there is a feeling of deprivation, a period of mourning, but ultimately the band can become a tool to overcome this sensation, and allow the patient to eat. Remember, if you want to be a 125 pound person, you have to eat like one. The band allows your body to re-set the thermostat to the amount of food that it takes to keep you satisfied between meals.

To be more specific - food does not stay in the pouch above the band for a long period of time. Typically it travels through this area fairly quickly, usually less than a couple of minutes. The effect of the band is NOT to have food stay above the stomach in that small pouch - the effect of the band is on your appetite after a small amount of food stimulates that. Does this mean you can eat more -- yes, you can. That is always in your control.

So the first lesson -- Eat a specific, and small, portion of food, and walk away
If you can measure it -- you can manage it

Monday, July 19, 2010

Where's the couche?

Couche? Anyone know? Well, I sure as heck didn't. The couche is the spot on a watermelon that was on the ground while it was were thinking WHAT? Ha. Anyway, turns out that for a ripe melon you should be able to see the couche when you are buyingit. If it isn't there, the melon was picked prior to maturity. Other watermelon picking tips:
  • Symemetrical melon heavy for its size and free of blemishes or soft spots
  • The belly button of the melon. OK, it's not really called that, but it kinda is just like a belly button isn't it? Anyway it's supposed to have clean indentations (not sure what that means), but indicates that the melon naturally detached from the stem which I guess is a good thing.
(source: paraphrased from C00king Light Mag - July issue)

Watermelons are big right? OK, maybe I'm just saying get a BIG one. A really really BIG one. Why? Cause you don't want to let that baby go to waste, right? So what do you do???? WATERMELON MOJITO PARTY!!!! Here's the recipe. It's kinda theirs and mine because I cut out some of the calories and sure as heck still tasted good to me:
  1. Muddle 2 watermelon chunks with the juice of 1 lime and 2 teaspoons of sugar in a glass. That's from the recipe. Here's what I did - took a glass, filled it halfway with watermelon chunks, sprayed in some lime from one of those fake limes that is filled with lime juice (so you really don't want to juice the whole lime in this case..just sayin'), and a packet of Truvia (that natural fake sweetener. Uh huh, natural fake - I know. But it's good). Since I do not have a kitchen equipped with all the gadgets of a culinary person, I used the bottom of a wooden spoon. Pound the hell out of the stuff that's in the glass.
  2. Stir in a handful of mint leaves. (I put them in a pounded them around some more to get some of the mint to release.)
  3. 2 ounces white rum. (I used one big shot)
  4. Ice
  5. Top with ginger ale (I used diet Sierra Mi$t---I think any clear soda would be fine.)
  6. Garnish with more mint (uh, put in a straw and get to drinkin'!)
Paraphrased from: F00d Network Mag - July/Aug edition

Let me just say: YUMMY!

Workout summary from Polar for last week:
  • 8 hours 15 mins
  • 4900 calories

Friday, July 16, 2010

Why Do You Exercise?

  • To lose weight?
  • So you can eat whatever you want without a gain?
  • 'Cause you just "have to"?
  • You don't know?
  • Haven't really thought about it?
Well, I've been reading (and do read) a zillion blogs in Google Reader. It struck me how many times I read or read between the lines how much all of us consider exercise something we "have" to do to lose weight. And, it is true for most, but the reason is short term really isn't it? What happens when you don't have any more weight to lose? Do you stop working out? If you do, what about re-gain?
It got me thinking about why I exercise. The thoughts at top are what popped into my mind immediately. They just didn't seem good enough somehow. Especially when I honestly started thinking the "have to" and that I didn't know. Because there was more to exercise when I was younger (as in through my 20's and thin and exercising).

So what came to me is: I feel good after I workout. Seriously good. Really really good. Good as in healthy and strong. Did I say good? When I don't workout for a period of time - I don't feel good, start feeling "blah", have less energy, don't deal with stress as well, and many many more things. So I am going to try and focus on these reasons, which are more long term, (and maybe even a bit more motivating in a way?) when I am going to workout or on one of those days (OK - there are probably a few more than that) that I get the "I don't wannas".

Heck, I don't know. There's just a lot of crap that goes through my mind and sometimes it helps to throw it out here. Coming up in my next post - 'cause I gotta head out for some fun! - yummy boozy (as in adult) beverages to make with WATERMELON. : ) And my weekly recap....

Thanks to all of you that are following my blog. I know that everyone is in various stages of their lap band journey and it's exciting to read about your progress and I can definitely relate to your struggles. If ANYONE (follower, lurker, etc.) has a band question, please do not hesitate from asking me. I am happy to share with you my thoughts...


Wednesday, July 14, 2010

Heat Advisory

Issued by The National Weather Service / Dallas/Fort Worth, TX  / 3:01 pm CDT, Wed., Jul. 14, 2010 - Their text is in CAPS...


Fluffy: It's July. It's Texas. It's hot. We see plenty of days that are triple digits, so I am kinda confused as to how a 95 degree day with humidity that puts the heat index into 105 gets a heat advisory. And yes, I am this big of a dork and check out the weather and the advisories and crap. But now that I type this, I am starting to think that a heat advisory appears anytime it's in the triple digits. Oh well, moving on...



Fluffy: Didn't this already get stated in the first paragraph? And seriously, I checked. Most nights in July are pretty much in the 70's.


Fluffy: Now you are talking! "Frequent Breaks" = skip workout. Drink water, wear loose fitting and light colored clothing, etc. - UH DUH (oops I used caps - although the advisories would be funny if they had some "duhs" and "dudes" in there. DUDE - IT'S HOT OUT THERE. DUH, DRINK WATER. - Much better I think). Anyway, this is seriously basic information that all Texans (and other hot climates) should follow at all times during the heat of the summer, but whatever. Now my favorite: NEVER LEAVE YOUNG CHILDREN OR PETS IN AN ENCLOSED VEHICLE... EVEN FOR A SHORT TIME - So does this mean to "never" do it during a heat advisory or ever? An argument could be made that the way this is written says only during a heat advisory. And yes, common sense would say otherwise, but I am not kidding you that every summer there are deaths of kids that are left in cars by STUPID parents. I think it needs a revision though: DUDES - REGARDLESS OF HEAT ADVISORY DON"T BE A DUMBASS. NEVER LEAVE YOUR KIDS OR PETS IN A FRICKIN CAR UNLESS YOU ARE IN THERE BAKING AND DYING WITH THEM.

Bottom line:
Fluffy, The National Weather Service says you do not have to go for a jog tonight. Bootcamp this morning was enough. OK, maybe it is just being conveniently used, but maybe I'll still go for a walk. (Current temp is 96, but feels like 106.)
Bad news:
The temp is high and the humidity is about 49% right now. When I go to bootcamp in the morning, the temp is projected to be a cool 78 degrees, but the humidity is going to be 87%. Honestly, the current temp and humidity is looking pretty good. Tomorrow morning is going to suck...

Tuesday, July 13, 2010

Blogging Works...

Seriously. I got up yesterday morning. Felt like crap. I started getting ready and said "nope" - sinus infection - I could feel the pressure with each step. Need to go to the doc. So I went to the doc, got antibiotics, etc. and figured I'd just go to bootcamp Tuesday morning. Day goes on and the pounding and pressure is going down (thanks to the shot of antibiotics in the ass). Getting close to night bootcamp. Should I? Shouldn't I? Hubby says, "Skip it, you're not feeling well." ....Get my clothes on...Should I? Shouldn't I? Uh oh - I have to get 5 bootcamps in. If I don't go tonight, then I'll have to go TWO times another day to hit my 5 day commitment that I put on my I took my not so happy ass and went to bootcamp. Oops, please ignore the fact that I said that I would put a smile on when I went to camp...I was sick remember?!!! : )

I didn't get that extra workout in that I thought I might. So 5+1 for last week. According to my Polar: 5 hours 38 minutes for 3091 calories.

Friday, July 09, 2010

BYOC – Bring Your Own Craziness

Yep, I’m jumping on the “band” wagon. Ha ha, get it? Yes, I am hilarious and here all week!

Week so far recap first though:
  • Toss all crap food from the house. Yes, it is a waste, but I don't care. It has to be removed from the house. - DONE....Good comment Trixie on that post. ("Just remember, it's NOT a waste if you toss it out. It's a waste if it ends up on your waiste.")
  • Make a menu for the week and stick to it. – Yes for M-Th, Going to have to figure out today – Sun.
  • Go to 5 bootcamps. Stretch goal: Add 2+ workouts on top of bootcamps. 5 +1 so far. Maybe I can get my butt to move again tomorrow and hit the stretch goal!
  • Drink, drink, drink! Increase water in the hopes of flushing some of this bloat out of myself. I have been a drinking fool! (Thanks for joining me Jody V!!!)
And, now, courtesy of:

Love or money? High salary or job satisfaction?
What’s that expression? You can love a rich one as much as a poor one? It’s not so much $$$ for me, it’s ambition, drive, and success. If my husband was a teacher, but was all those things, then that would work for me. NOTE: I love teachers. I only use it as an example, because being a teacher is a GREAT job, but in my opinion teachers are not paid enough.

Both on salary and job satisfaction…I actually have more of a three-legged stool on jobs. Leg one: Salary. Leg two: The Job Itself. Leg Three: People you work with. It’s a balance between the three. If you are not adequately happy with the three, guess what? Your stool topples over and it may be time to consider if something needs to be done. And here’s a surprise, it’s rare to be completely content with all three, (man, you are a lucky dog if you are!) but usually as long as two of the three are strong they “can” compensate for the third leg. (Uh, quit typing…OK, stopping now as I am not even sure this makes any sense!)

What is your favorite time of day?
Man there isn’t just one time of day. I like mornings after I’ve finished bootcamp. I like any time of day spent with my hubby or friends. Ah, sleep, I like sleep. Etc.

My in-laws just had their wills done so it made me wonder this. Do you have a will? Did you tell anyone your wish to be kept alive or not?
We have talked about what happens if one of us is critically injured, etc. No kids, so has not been a priority, but it is on our “to do” list.

Repeat question. Pick one thing for one day you'll do next week that aids in your physical or mental health.
I will go to bootcamp M-F. I will put a smile on my face and tell myself that I can do anything that she challenges us to.

Repeat questions. Make someone a superstar for a moment...whose comment or blog stuck with you this week and why.
I honestly can’t think of just one. Sorry…I kinda suck, but the blogs have rocked!

Monday, July 05, 2010


Well, I did have a bit of a hangover from my anniversary celebration. As I get older, more than about a glass and a half of wine leads to recovery time which led to being a sloth and eating like crap. So this morning was the real hangover. Food hangover that is.

I could feel all the crap I ate the past few days at bootcamp this morning. It's funny how a few days of utter crap eating makes me feel so bloated and yucky. Ah well, it's life right? So back on track it is. I'm going to watch my food choices pretty closely for the next couple of weeks. Quite a few treats have been entering the picture. Definitely a slippery slope for me and I am going to put the brakes on it now. Complacency? Thinking that it won't matter? Rationalizing? Denial? All of it? Bottom line: "step away from the crap". To make this a reality, I'm going to:
  • Toss all crap food from the house. Yes, it is a waste, but I don't care. It has to be removed from the house.
  • Make a menu for the week and stick to it.
  • Go to 5 bootcamps. Stretch goal: Add 2+ workouts on top of bootcamp
  • Drink, drink, drink! Increase water in the hopes of flushing some of this bloat out of myself.
Ha. Just looked down and saw which shirt I put on. Very fitting. "Just Do It".

Thursday, July 01, 2010

How time flies!

I can remember as a kid thinking how long the summers were. How a school year took forever to end. Time until my next birthday? Forget about it! It crawled. Adults would always say, enjoy it. As you get older time will go by very quickly. Dang it if they weren't right!

A year ago July 3, I did something I didn't think I would EVER do. I got married. On that day, I was so happy. Neither of us could stop smiling. Did I think it would always be like that? Uh, no. In fact, the night before I had given him a letter that said there will be hard times, we'll fight, etc. etc., but I'll stick with you and am looking for you to stick with me. I not only gave him my heart, but I also gave him my trust. Let's just say I had far from the best childhood, no relationship with parents, and acquaintances with siblings at best and leave it at that. Letting myself actually let go and trust him 100% was huge. I cried like a baby as he read that letter and he said, "hey, this is a happy time." I seem to recall saying something like: "I really am happy, just emotional, and a bit scared."

Well a year will have passed on Saturday. And as expected with two very different, independent people, we have had our fair share of fights, etc. But some wise people that have been married for 20+ years had told me that the first year of marriage was the hardest for them. Our first year was hard. I am not going to lie. While you want to "please" your partner, you also don't want to compromise your wants and needs and have to find the balance. You have to figure out how to navigate through all of this and figure out the nuances of communicating with one another.

While I traveled to stay with him prior to getting married because my job afforded me the flexibility, we technically didn't live together full time. We each had separate households and there were weeks apart. For me, I didn't want to live together. At 40, I told him, we're either doing it all the way (getting married) or not. I don't know, for me that was just the "right" thing. I needed to take that step as I had done the "live together thing" before and in hindsight I always had one foot out the door. It's hard for me to explain, but I swear deep down I knew I could leave at any time which prevented me from fully commiting really. (And, maybe I didn't really want to.)

A year later was getting married still the "right" thing? Thankfully I can honestly answer that with a "yes". I can't imagine my life without him. He can drive me nuts at times and I get angry and frustrated, but I do the same to him. We are getting better and I am hopeful that those wise experts were right and our 2nd year will be a bit smoother.

My final thoughts: don't settle. Hold out for the "right" person. Male / female whatever - it doesn't matter - find that person you can both love AND trust. Could you end up as the crazy cat lady? (For guys, is it crazy dog dude????) Believe me, I was thinking that could be me and upset about it when I was turning 30 (hey, I even had two cats!). Over time I moved from being worried about it to: "I'm a catch. Someone will be lucky to have me. If it happens, it happens. If it doesn't, I'll be OK." .... Happy 4th of July to readers in the States. Happy Canada Day to any readers in Canada. And, happy weekend to all!

(Yep, those are "real" wedding pics.)