Saturday, March 05, 2011


The day started early with getting my husband's lunch together to leave for a flight. He did some flight planning before he left and told me that there may be rain this morning where we live, so I should check before I left for my run. He left and I finished my coffee, ate a Clif Bar, and started getting ready. Sure enough, I checked the radar and rain was coming through, but would be clear at 11am.

In typical Texas fashion, while the radar looked like what I have, none of the rain actually appeared. *Sigh*

I have bad days just like everyone else. This run was not shaping up well. At this point, the distance runs are mental for me. My body can do it, but at times my mind gets in the way.

I took off on my run and it was going fine. But that changed quickly. I don't know if it was the stress I've been under this week which has impacted my sleep, some hanging on marriage crap, or what. Bottom line - this run sucked.

I looked down and I had only gone 1.5 miles and it seriously felt like 5. Then my mind really kicked in with a bunch of negative crap. Negative crap about a number of things. I just kept going, but at about mile 5ish as I passed a bench, I hit pause on my Garmin and sat down. I sat there for a few minutes having a cry. I just have a bunch of crap going on and I guess this brought it to the surface.

I was going to go home and say screw this training run. But I decided to just walk for a bit and see how it went. I was torn. I wanted to go home, but I also didn't want to give up on this training run (and myself). Did it get better? A bit. I can't say that I enjoyed the run, but I was proud of myself for finishing it. 10.5 miles later I was done. Surprisingly my pace was only off by about 10 minutes.

I guess my title is an exaggeration. It wasn't my run worst ever, it's better characterized as hard. But while hard, I finished it. That's what is important.


FitBy40 said...

I know what you's all in the head! I can run, but mostly my head isn't into it because I'm not actually training for anything right now. As soon as I sign up for a race, my head will be in it. Hey, at least you DID it and didn't make excuses, right?! Tomorrow is a better day.
Great job.

Miss Vickie "The Queen Bee" said...

Very impressive! sorry you are going through some stuff right now, but good for you for finishing your run!

Jody V said...

Aaawww Fluffy,

The run didn't suck! Your issues weighed you down. That sure does happen! It happens to me quite often lately. As I get older I want different things than Frank. It's tough...A tough balance of what us powerful woman want and what the other half can give us! I'm dealing with crap myself now. Hang in there! It will get better. Anytime you need to talk...I'm here. I think we have a lot in common Sister!!

Ronnie said...

I was thinking it was going to rain yesterday, too. The cloud cover was definitely there around mid-morning. :(

I live in McKinney, how great to have a fellow bandster so close! :D