Tuesday, May 03, 2011

What Size am I Today?

I find clothes shopping a lot of the time to be frustrating. I just want to know that I am a certain size and be able to pick things off the rack with some comfort that it should fit without having to take 2-5 sizes into the dressing room with me.

I agree with the article posted below in the sentiment that trying on 10 pairs of jeans at times does make me feel like there is something wrong with me! At times, I just hit this point that "nothing fits" and am over shopping. There is a bright side though, it's good for my pocket book. : )

Ironically though, I have put some effort into finding some summer clothes and had some luck in finding a few things. If I could get over being a bargain hunter, I'm sure that would also help.

Anyway, if one of these scanners shows up in TX, sign me up! The entire New York Times article follows. Has anyone tried one? Source.

One Size Fits Nobody: Seeking a Steady 4 or a 10
By STEPHANIE CLIFFORD

In one store, you’re a Size 4, in another a Size 8, and in another a Size 10 — all without gaining an ounce.
It’s a familiar problem for many women, as standard sizing has never been very standard, ever since custom clothing gave way to ready-to-wear.

So, baffled women carry armfuls of the same garment in different sizes into the dressing room. They order several sizes of the same shirt online, just to get the right fit.

Now, a handful of companies are tackling the problem of sizes that are unreliable. Some are pushing more informative labels. Some are designing multiple versions of a garment to fit different body shapes. And one is offering full-body scans at shopping malls, telling a shopper what sizes she should try among the various brands.

“For the consumer to go out and navigate which one do I match with is a huge challenge, and causes frustration and returns,” said Tanya Shaw, an entrepreneur working on a fit system. “So many women tie their self-esteem to the size on the tag.”

As the American population has grown more diverse, sizes have become even less reliable. Over the years, many brands have changed measurements so that a woman who previously wore a 12 can now wear a 10 or an 8, a practice known as “vanity sizing.”

In men’s clothes, the dimensions are usually stated in inches; women’s clothing involves more guesswork.

Take a woman with a 27-inch waist. In Marc Jacobs’s high-end line, she is between an 8 and a 10. At Chico’s, she is a triple 0. And that does not consider whether the garment fits in the hips and bust. (Let’s not get into length; there is a reason most neighborhood dry cleaners also offer tailoring.)

Ms. Shaw, the entrepreneur, is chief executive of a company called MyBestFit that addresses the problem. It is setting up kiosks in malls to offer a free 20-second full-body scan — a lot like the airport, minus the pat-down alternative that T.S.A. agents offer.

Lauren VanBrackle, 20, a student in Philadelphia, tried MyBestFit when she was shopping last weekend.

“I can be anywhere from a 0 at Ann Taylor to a 6 at American Eagle,” she said. “It obviously makes it difficult to shop.” This time, the scanner suggested that at American Eagle, she should try a 4 in one style and a 6 in another. Ms. VanBrackle said she tried the jeans on and was impressed: “That machine, in a 30-second scan, it tells you what to do.”

The customer steps into a circular booth, fully dressed. A wand rotates around her, emitting low-power radio waves that record about 200,000 body measurements, figuring out things like thigh circumference.

Next, the system matches the customer’s measurements to clothes in its database. MyBestFit currently measures clothes from about 50 stores, including Old Navy, Eddie Bauer and Talbots.

Customers then receive a printout of the sizes at each store that ought to fit the customer best. The retailers pay a fee when they appear in the results, but they cannot pay to be included in the results; the rankings are based solely on fit. (The company saves the data, with ID numbers but not names, and may give aggregate information to retailers as feedback.)

Don Thomas, who manages the Eddie Bauer store at the King of Prussia Mall outside Philadelphia, said the system was helpful to shoppers. “Nine times out of 10, if left on their own, they will choose the wrong size pant,” he said. With a printout, “if it says they’re a 4 or a 6, they’re a 4 or a 6, generally. So it’s really good for the customer who’s time-starved, which we all are.”

Ms. Shaw says there are plans for 13 more scanning machines in malls along the East Coast and in California by the end of the year.
The sizing variations are a big contributor to $194 billion in clothing purchases returned in 2010, or more than 8 percent of all clothing purchases, according to the National Retail Federation.

The scanners are a modern solution to an old problem. Studying dress sizes in Vogue advertisements from 1922 on, Alaina Zulli, a designer focusing on costume history, found clothing sizes have been irregular for decades.

A woman with a 32-inch bust would have worn a Size 14 in Sears’s 1937 catalog. By 1967, she would have worn an 8, Ms. Zulli found.

Today, she would wear a zero.

Plenty of people have tried to address these arbitrary sizes. Advocating a labeling system called Fitlogic over the last few years, an entrepreneur, Cricket Lee, discovered just how difficult it is to change manufacturers’ approach to size.

Her labeling system divides women’s bodies into three shapes, straight, hourglass or bottom-heavy, and a Fitlogic label carries both the standard size and the shape.

Ms. Lee did tests in the mid-2000s with manufacturers like Jones Apparel and retailers like Nordstrom. But retailers said consumers had trouble grasping the concept. “The manufacturers were so afraid of producing more than one fit in the very beginning,” she said.

Still, she said, she will soon try to sell the sizing system again.

Some brands are taking their own approaches to make the fitting room less demoralizing. Mary Alderete, vice president for women’s global marketing at Levi’s, said, “When we try on 10 pairs of jeans to buy one, the reason you feel bad is because you think something’s wrong with you.”

Last fall, the company introduced Curve ID, a line that offers three styles, depending on how rounded a woman’s backside is — slight, demi and bold. (Levi’s is now testing a fourth style, called supreme curve.) Each of the three styles includes about 29 fits and colors, and dozens of sizes. Ms. Alderete said the company had sold more than one million pairs of the Curve jeans.

Marie-Eve Faust, the program director of fashion merchandising at Philadelphia University, called the Levi’s effort “a good start.”

“The next step is to have the major players sit together, manufacturers, retailers, brands, and say ‘This type of label should be appropriate for all of us. Let’s standardize,’ ” she said.

Dr. Faust said she had been discussing a new kind of label that takes into account the wearer’s shape, but expected retailers to bristle.

Still, Dr. Faust said, change is needed.

“It would be nice just to take the pant, look at the label and say, ‘That should fit me,’ ” she said.

Monday, May 02, 2011

Bah! Monday?!

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The weather yesterday and today is getting to me! It has been cold, stormy, and very dark. I'll just say it, it's Monday, I'm grumpy, and I would like to just go back to bed!

Weekly Round Up
  • 7 bootcamps
  • Calories: 4706

Friday, April 29, 2011

Stool Revision

Justawallflower (who by the way, is far from "just a wallflower" in my opinion!) made a very good point on my original stool post. She mentioned that I was missing support. Since support really is a foundation item, I added a rug!
(Why yes, that is a berber rug!)

Then I started to wonder why I didn't have support in there originally and the truth is because I didn't have much throughout most of my journey outside of myself. I don't think this is a good or a bad thing for me, it just is. There are some reasons for it:

I'm estranged from my family. Isn't that a nice way to say it when you just don't have anything to do with them? I'm serious. It is - "I'm estranged." Anyway, I am. So, no support there.

I told 5 people. To this day they are the only people that know. Of those 5, I would say two just ignored everything that was going on. Never said a word and haven't really to this day said anything even though I'm 105 lbs less than I was. A bit strange, but OK. Two others would make nice comments about my progress along the way. And the last, my bff, is the one that took me to surgery and stayed with me after. She listened to me moan and complain. She's my rug.

My issues were inside me. I had to reach deep inside myself and figure things out and honestly there wasn't anyone that was going to be able to help me with this. I needed to figure out how to help myself.

Lack of trust and fear. I just don't trust people as a rule. Too many things have happened that have made trust a very big issue for me. The good news is that I recognize it which makes me aware and more open to trusting someone than I used to. But the thought of trusting someone with such personal information, when frankly it's no ones business, just didn't work for me.

Blogging and other online avenues were not what they are today. Six years ago there were only a handful of blogs and online communities just didn't "do it" for me. I think where things have evolved to is amazing and great for everyone!

This post is a perfect example of the support from blogging. Thanks Justawallflower for pointing my oversight out and giving me something to think about! And, thanks to all of you that comment and follow my blog. I find it very humbling and you are all now part of my rug!

Royal Comment
I watched the wedding of Prince William, Duke of Cambridge, to Catherine Middleton. Loved it! I just thought it was great. So different from the wedding of Prince Charles to Princess Diana (um, yah, I watched that one too). This one just seemed more real and authentic to me. They just seem perfect together! (Well, as perfect as you can get anyway, they are married after all!)

Alabama and other Southern States
Unbelievable. There are no words to describe the destruction and the nearly 300 people killed. Want to help? You can make a donation to the Red Cross.  It seems like there is also a blood shortage, so check out where your closest donation station and consider going.

Thursday, April 28, 2011

My Stool

Ewwww, not THAT kind! The 3-legged kind of stool. I was chatting with a friend that has the band that unfortunately hasn't had the best results. For some time, I've been dreading wondering if he would ask me the million dollar question. Essentially, why have our journeys been so different.

While I have some suspicions of things that are going on with him that might be effecting his success, I didn't want to potentially be viewed as picking on him or throwing stones. Thankfully I had been thinking about this some just in case. I needed a way to frame up my journey that would possibly give him a tool to use to reflect on his journey.

Here enters THE STOOL:
Hey, I never said I was an artist! A 3-legged stool has to have balance. If the legs aren't balanced the stool teeters all over the place or may even fall over. This analogy works for my journey as well. For my band to work, I have to have equal balance of diet and exercise. The balance of the 3 allows my weight (the stool) to stay stable.

His response was that I made it sound "easy". I told him thanks and he looked at me strangely. Then I laughed and said, the thanks was for being able to explain it in such a way that it was easy to understand! Doing it is a different story, it took me a lot of practice and perseverance with some stumbles along the way as an added bonus!

It may not seem like it on here, but there are plenty of days that I want to eat crap and/or not exercise, but I usually just get over myself and do it. I tend to be more successful with exercise over my desire to eat crap, but still maintain decent balance on my stool overall. I reminded him that it's not "one" lapse, but multiple lapses that add up and lead to imbalance.

Ah, this brings to mind GUILT, but I'll leave that for another day and leave you to think about your stool.

Ewwww and you're welcome. : )

Tuesday, April 26, 2011

The Five W's


Source
 I was thinking how the Five W's pretty much fit my journey - ("Who" doesn't fit). These habits definitely didn't happen over night, and even after nearly six years now and then I stumble, but that's life, right?

What I eat. I focus on making healthy choices most of the time. But I give myself permission, don't beat myself up, etc. to have what I want that I used to tag as "bad" when I want it (Like those PB eggs on Easter). I guess it closely resembles intuitive eating. Whatever it's labeled, it has worked at leveling out for me the eat crap / eat nothing but healthy roller coaster I had been on.

Where I eat. Unless it's a special occasion, I eat at the table with little distraction. I used to always eat in the living room with the TV on. Breaking this habit definitely made me more conscious of what I was eating and how fast I was eating.

When I eat. I do eat on a schedule, but if I'm not hungry at that time, I just don't eat. Um, then I guess you could say I'm not really on a schedule then, couldn't you? : )  but I "check in" with myself at the scheduled times to make sure that I don't get too hungry. "Meals" only last for 20 minutes...well, unless I'm hanging out with friends, etc.

Why I eat. I eat when I'm hungry. I no longer eat just because it's meal time or to stuff my feelings.

How I eat and how much. (I swear there is also a "sometimes 'how'" in this 5 W's wasn't there? )I eat slower, chew more, and don't drink while I'm eating. I also try to stick to my bandster portions at all times. As time goes on, I think it's easy for portion sizes to begin creeping up and I have to stay conscious of this because of my "portion distortion".

So that's my 5 W's...Yep, I'm counting the one in ho"w". : )

Monday, April 25, 2011

I ate an egg and I liked it...

**singing title to Katy Perry's - I kissed a girl**...OK, it was more like a dozen, but who's counting?!


AND I liked LOVED EVERY SINGLE ONE!!!...*SIGH* only 364 days until I see you again.

Sunday, April 24, 2011

Date Night!

So, I had a really cute date, blah blah blah....but let's talk about the food! (HA!) We had wanted to go to Seasons 52 for some time. The restaurant changes part of its menu seasonally and all dishes are under 475 calories. Oh, but rest assured, it sounds impressive stat wise, but you can easily eat a lot of calories --- it's under 475 per entree. So, appetizer, main, and dessertS later, the calories can add up. Foreshadowing???? Yep, but I thought I'd provide an example of a "splurge" meal for me.

My husband and I split the appetizers. A steak flatbread and crab/shrimp stuffed mushrooms. Then we had an entree --- he had lamb and I had filet. What did I really eat? Two triangles of the very thin yummy flatbread, two of crab/shrimp stuffed mushrooms, about 1/4 of the filet and some of the mashed potatoes.

Then...
DESSERT! Love the little servings. Um, but I (yes, me!) selected 4 of the shots. I just couldn't decide and man was it worth it! We split them and they were worth every single calorie. I'd estimate everything I ate that night at about 1000 calories, but no worries. This was a splurge meal.

Weekly Round Up
  • 5 bootcamps
  • 0 runs
  • Calories: 3043
And a NSV - White capris!!!

To those that celebrate - Happy Easter!

Thursday, April 21, 2011

BbbWWhhaaattt?

Um, that's a chicken saying "what". I received this today:
We regret to inform you that CAD Inc. has had to cancel the Texas Chicken Run. You will receive a full refund by mail. Please except our most sincere apology for any inconvenience this may have caused.
BIG SAD FACE! Soooo, I am now registered for Jailbreak DFW. The fun:
Break Free from the ordinary. Test yourself over 3.1 miles and 16 muddy, wet, challenging and fun filled obstacles and then kick back and reward yourself with great Texas BBQ and an ice cold cerveza.
So no feathering or neat chicken hat, but this one normally has an orange shirt and is pretty cool. Hopefully this year's shirt will be as well.

FitBy40 - Stephanie left in for you in the Comments, but in case you didn't see it or others want it, here's a link: boobs.

**UPDATED** I was just over visiting FitBy40 - she's a really cool banded chick. She's getting after it and I think many people aren't keeping up with her journey. I encourage you to go check out her blog and follow her! She can be found here.

Wednesday, April 20, 2011

Will I see you there?

Air Tickets to Chicago? - Check (Arriving Thursday evening / Leaving Sunday afternoon)

Roommate? - Check -> click here. Angela is awesome!

Excited? - CHECK!

Meeting you? Hope so!

Monday, April 18, 2011

Wind, Hail, OH MY!

It's probably just a typical April weather wise, but it seems like every year it just seems "bad". It was really windy all weekend during the day with storms at night. I got the first indication when I found this:

That's one of our zero gravity chairs enjoying a dip in our pool! And, since I don't "do" the pool (husband job), but the chore owner was out of town for the weekend, I had to get it out myself. Thankfully I was able to get it to the edge with the skimmer without having to get in the pool which is still too cold...well, unless you are a polar bear or a penguin.

I am hoping that hail will hit my house. I know strange, but roofs are expensive and don't last as long as they do in other climates! We need a new roof, we pay a lot for insurance, so a bit of hail damage would really help out. (This really isn't a strange wish to have here, really!). Anyway, some of my friends. who unfortunately did not want or need a new roof got MY hail. But check this out:


And those sat around the house for 30 minutes while they were doing a bit more important stuff than taking pictures of the hail! Thankfully while there was damage, none of my friends were hurt.

Weekly Round Up
  • 6 bootcamps
  • 0 runs (0 miles) --- (I just didn't feel like it so I didn't.)
  • Calories: 3561

Friday, April 15, 2011

Good Enough

I can remember at different times throughout this journey wondering "am I doing good enough?" There were two things that I was doing that were setting me up to think that I wasn't.
  1. Setting unrealistic goals.
  2. Comparing myself to others.
Unrealistic goals came in different forms for me. I used things like "you should" lose this much per week to calculate dates that I should be at X weight. Or setting workout goals that I didn't really like or just didn't work with my schedule. As the saying goes, failure was not an option. So I ended up feeling bad about myself. Thinking I wasn't doing good enough and beating myself up. Let's be real, that's just not healthy for me or anyone.

I think it is a natural tendency for me to veer toward an all or nothing mentality. I have found that in my professional life as well and have been working on balance in all aspects.

Don't get me wrong, I am in no way saying that goals are not imporant. Hell, I have them. It's that I have learned that goals need to be realistic, or even more so for me, that it is OK to say that goal sucks and I'm changing it or kicking it to the curb. It doesn't mean I'm a failure, not good enough, or not trying hard enough.  It means the goal was unrealistic from the get go, I decided I wasn't enjoying the journey to achieve that goal, or I needed more time to get there. Bottom line, I need to be kinder to myself and acknowledge that I am good enough regardless of achieving a goal or not. Tough lesson and one that after years of thinking otherwise is still pretty hard.

When I was banded nearly 6 years ago, there was only a handful of blogs and most people were not much further along on their journey than me. In hindsight maybe this actually was a good thing for me. I think women naturally compare themselves to other women. Genetics? Environment? Who knows, but what I do know is that it seems to be a "woman thang".

What's funny about it though is that we do it with this bad intent. At least for me, I don't walk into a room and go --- ha ha, I am now thinner than her, her, her---it's this weirdo, OMG, I look horrible compared to her, fatter, whatever. It's almost a way we have of beating ourselves up and again, not being good enough. To get to my point, this journey is about each of us individually. The band is different for everyone. It's a tool that is the same, but our bodies are different and unique. There are variations everywhere, fill level, amount of exercise performed/needed, rate of loss, overall weight loss, etc. But bottom line, don't compare, set realistic goals, be kind to yourself, and remember ultimately that we ARE all "good enough". (In fact, were not good, we're grrreeeattttt!)

Wednesday, April 13, 2011

C-a-n-d-y has entered the house!

And that isn't a lady named Candy. It's candy. MMM, sugar, fat, chewy, chocolate goooooddddnnneeeesssss. It wasn't a problem....at first. But when it's in the house it TALKS to me. Seriously: "hey, over here", "yoooo hoooo", "I know you know I'm here"; "Come on! Come EAT ME!".

My husband doesn't eat it, so there is no reason for it to be in the house. When I want some, I get a small pack or bar or whatever and that's it. It's OK for me to eat crap now and then, but a bag in my house once opened will slowly disappear over time.

*SIGH*

And yes, my husband thinks I'm nuts. He just doesn't get it. He says, "just go have some and be done with it." Oh sure, if it was only so easy. Side bar: how the hell is it that he just doesn't really like candy???? THAT is not normal! tee hee

Anyway, I was obsessing and denying myself which doesn't work for me. If I want it, then have it. I measured out a serving and that's what I had to eat. I remembered that I had seen some snippet of the skinny chick's (the housewife chick) book that said that after the first couple of bites you don't really taste it anymore. And somewhere else I had read or heard (in my own words) that if you are in the zone of eating you need to break the cycle by disruption; like having a glass of water. Hell, all this probably came to mind because I had been obsessing so long.

I decided I'd have half of what was there and then some hot tea that I enjoy. If I wanted more fine, if not, then also fine. And, SHOCKER, I had my tea and was done. I put the rest back in the bag and threw it in the freezer where it remains. It's now "hey, over here", "yoooo hoooo", "I know you know I'm here"; "Come on! Come EAT ME!". I have no problem at all throwing away crap, so if the talking continues, to the trash it goes.

HEAR THAT CANDY? Shut up or I'm throwing you OUT!

Monday, April 11, 2011

Too Thin vs. Too Fat

Sometimes I watch Ruby while I am doing something else like folding clothes. In a recent episode, she had an interesting point. Ruby talked about the two extremes - fat vs. anorexia. Using my words to paraphrase what I took away, anoxerics are viewed with pity and concern where fat people are viewed with hatred and disgust. This stayed with me and in general I think that "just eat" isn't really said about anorexics, but "just stop eating" is said like a simple fix to extreme obesity. Made me go "hmmm" anyway.

**Updated** Excellent point by Island Bandit in the Comments regarding insurance mandating "diets" prior to approval. Good for her for calling her insurance company on the double standard! I didn't even think about that until she mentioned it as I was self pay.
Weekly Round Up
  • 5 bootcamps
  • 1 runs (4mi) --- (I just didn't feel like doing my other run, so I didn't.)
  • Calories: 3396

Friday, April 08, 2011

Dr. Oz & the Band

OK, I didn't see the show, but I've seen the show mentioned on multiple blogs, so I checked out what I could find.

Video Part 1

Meet two women who have had lap-band surgery. Hear about how their relationship with food has changed. Dr. Oz discusses the pros and the cons of life...

Video Part 2

Meet two women who have had lap-band surgery. Hear about how their relationship with food has changed. Dr. Oz discusses the pros and the cons of...

My thoughts:
The amount of food they are eating: The one in the black, I never ate that little. The one in the yellow, that might be more accurate of what I ate when I was too tight.

I think that what has been portrayed for food by these two examples is not reflective of an "average" banded person at 6 months or 6 years. For sake of argument, I am close to 6 years out as well. Here's what I ate yesterday: a blueberry greek yogurt, bagel thin with peanut butter and banana, chicken, an orange, serving mixed steamed veggies, and a homemade fish corn tortilla taco "thing" with fixings. Does this mean that what I eat is "right"? Nope, but it is for me. Maybe what is more accurate is somewhere more in the middle? But I do not think what was shown for the person in yellow is "average".  And, I will say that the one in the black, no way is that reflective of what "should" be eaten 6 months out.

The lady in the audience that said she's addicted to food, it seemed to me that she thinks the band is going to address this addiction. I think that if you are addicted to food that unless the real issues are addressed you will eat around the band to get your "fix". Which Dr. Oz essentially said - it's a tool, minimally invasive, but it doesn't cure the emotional connection to food. He goes on to state that no WLS is going to address the food relationship. Personally, I agree.

Did you see the show or watch the videos here? What do you think?

Thursday, April 07, 2011

Thank Me?

I really like the show Army Wives. It's a military drama on Lifetime. On the episode the other week, there was a flashback where the shrink said to a soldier that was thanking him for "saving" him. In response to the soldier, the shrink said, "You drove the car, I just helped you navigate." Man, that sure struck a chord with me!

I can picture my band saying it to me: "you drove the car, I just helped you navigate". [What you don't have a talking band? : ) ] Because that really is the truth isn't it? The band is a tool. It helps us navigate our eating, but ultimately we must use (drive) the band to make it work.

You can work your way (ha - pun, weigh) around the band if you choose to with "sliders". And back in 2008 this happened to me. Stress, eating poorly (honestly a boat load of crap), and not exercising at all led me to a weight gain (10-15 lbs I think).

The band is not magic. It is a tool. A tool that must be used to get where you want and stay where you want. It does not do it on its own or for you and it requires effort - both in exercise and also in food choices (well, for most people anyway). I knew this going in and knew it all throughout the weight gain. I just chose to ignore it.

I think this weight gain though was important for me. It served a purpose which might sound really weird, but it helped me to *see* all the changes in behavior that I had made on this journey that was so much more than eating or "working the band". I saw not only the progress on the scale, all those wonderful NSVs, but the behaviors that I had adopted (dare I say needed?) that really got me to goal....and, just made me feel so much better about myself and how I felt physically. These changes included things in my personal life, my professional life, and just day-to-day behaviors.

I guess the best way to say it is that I lost focus during this time period, but that makes it sound too much like thinking about this journey all the time. And, while that may seem like the case on this blog, that isn't my reality. At the time, I just chose to go back to what was a previous comfort zone. But when I had my "aha" moment, I just felt gross and sad again.

Since this time, I have stayed on course. And, in many ways progressed leaps and bounds from where I was even prior to hitting goal. While I am glad to have my band, I really need to give myself credit. I made a lot of choices and changes that ultimately got me to where I am today. So, while the band --- and the whole heck of a lot of money I spent on it --- were likely the impetus for permanent change, ultimately I had to embrace the changes and make them just a part of me. So, that's why I am taking a timeout to "thank me".

Tuesday, April 05, 2011

Wellness Goals - 1st Quarter Results

I think the easiest way to track against my 2011 Wellness Goals I set here, is to update them every quarter. So the next update will be sometime in early July.

1. Boot camps. Goal: 200 camps. Stretch Goal: 240.
  • So far: 58
  • At the rate I am currently trending, I *should* hit my goal number. I am thinking that the weeks that there isn't camp that if I take a group exercise class at the gym, I will just add it here as well.
2. Training/Race Total Miles. Goal: 416 miles. Stretch Goal: 520 miles.
  • So far: 91.92 miles
  • I'm trending a bit short here for the year as this only has "running" miles included, but I think I should hit my goal.
3. Half Marathon(s). Goal: 1. Stretch Goal: 2.
  • So far: 1 - Goal completed. : ) ... considering another one
4. 5K or other races such as obstacle races. Goal: 3. Stretch Goal: 5.
  • So far: 1 5K completed; Signed up for: 1 obstacle
  • There are 3 other 5Ks I am considering and possibly a 15K that is supposed to have a cool shirt. It's likely that I'll hit my strech goal on this one.
5. Calorie Burn. Goal: 130,000 Stretch Goal: 150,000
  • So far: 50,900
  • This goal might be set too low. At the current rate, it's possible that I would kill my stretch goal. I'll see where it is at the end of the 2nd quarter and may need to adjust it a little.

Sunday, April 03, 2011

Weekly Round Up

Miscellaneous Items from the Weekend:
  • My husband went to bootcamp with me on Saturday. On Sunday, he was complaining about how sore his butt was - HA! I asked him to massage my butt when I first started bootcamp over a year ago and he thought I had lost my mind at the time, not anymore! (Yes, I did giggle just a little itty bit.)
  • Soft white corn tortilla chicken taco with all the fixins from Chipotle = love. Mmmm, Chipotle.
  • I took the entire week off from running. I liked the break.
  • Some buddies are trying to convince me to run another half a week from TODAY! While my training says I can, I'm just not feeling it. Translation - Don't wanna. But I am *thinking* about doing one in May, August, and December. Uh, excuse me, who the hell am I?
  • Chips with a hint of lime with guacamole = dangerous, but super yummy. From where? Chipotle of course! I hadn't been there in a while and I had forgotten how much I liked their food.
  • I received a catalog in the mail from JCP. To save a wasted trip and cause I am just not a huge fan of shopping, I check the inventory at stores near me online for items when I can. Seriously, every single thing I was interested in going to look at was "unavailable" at a store near me. What is up with that?  I went ahead and ordered the items online. Fingers crossed what I ordered works out.
  • The weather has been strange. It was really cold, then nice, and now super windy, but nice. Weird, but typical for Texas.
  • Only 21 days until Easter....I will likely eat an ENTIRE bag of Reese's PB eggs.
  • Starbucks has that new size - Trenta. I didn't think I'd ever order this size, but then Spring came around and I remembered my spring/summer drink -- unsweetened passion iced tea : ) - zero calories.
  • There has been a free weekend of multiple premium channels from my cable provider. We tried to find a movie to watch Friday and Saturday evening and we couldn't find a thing!
  • I did every single bit of laundry...for about 5 minutes. Every piece was also folded (h-a-t-e) and put away (dislike). Why is it that the laundry bin can't stay empty for a period of time to make all the effort worth it????
  • Monday is tomorrow again already???? UGH!
  • Weekly recap: 6 bootcamps - calories: 3656

Friday, April 01, 2011

Comments Settings & Ramblings (serious ramblings, you've been warned)

There have been various mentions of changing the settings on the comments for some reason. Does anyone know what the changes are that were recommended and why? I really couldn't figure it out and now that's bugging me! Thanks in advance for helping me figure out this mystery!

And, while speaking of comments, I read a lot of blogs. I get them in a reader feed and I like to keep up with them as much as I can. Anyway, I used to think well all I really have to say is "congratulations" or "good job" and decided that wasn't valuable or enough. In the past couple of weeks, I changed my thinking on that. I thought back through my journey and realized that one or two words was important to me. In blog land it's also some sign that "hey, look someone IS reading this". So, that's what I do now. Because I really am excited for people---every success makes me smile and I can relate to nearly all of the struggles and stumbles along the way. I hope that when the one or two words are posted  that they take it positively and not that I'm lazy or something. Anyway, not sure where all that came from...

Excess Weight Loss post...Thanks for the comments! I think my intent of the complex math might have gotten a little lost in the shuffle of the complexity. All the articles and studies on lap band make references to results based excess weight loss. Like this:

I hadn't been able to find a definition for how EWL was calculated directly where I would see the references and percentages and I wanted to figure it out. What I find a bit shocking is that based on the calculation that I found results are not as high as I personally perceived them. As you can see above 3 years out is 64% / 73% here. Using the calculation to determine my excess weight loss, my results are 156.7%. While I think I have been successful, I don't think in reality it is 156.7% worth of success.

What concerns me has to do with the averaging that occurs on the data. With results like mine, mixed with others like me, it moves up the average. Just for illustration, if you take a 156.7% and a 10% result, then the average would be roughly 83%. And, when I see just "83%" without the details, my reaction is "hey, that's good. this thing really works". But if I saw the data behind the percent would I still be as impressed? And, yes there's all that highs and lows average out, but what if I saw another cut of the data that really showed I had a 50/50 chance of being a high OR a low and there weren't many inbetween? The scenarios are endless and pretty pointless without the "real" data which I don't have access to - RATS! Bottom line data can be used in such a way to support a desired perspective...and I'm just a data dork. Please disregard. HA!

YA FRIDAY!!!! : )

Wednesday, March 30, 2011

What the )*(@)#($*@ is Excess Weight?

So the flurry of news stories about the lap band got me thinking again. What is success as defined in these various articles/studies? All of them have some reference to "excess weight". Well, what the hell is excess weight and how is it calculated? Is it "ideal weight"?  BMI at the top of the "normal" zone? Heck if I know, but it bugged me enough to do some digging.

So first step, figure out what the heck excess weight is. I found this:

Calculating Excess Weight Loss
Excess weight is the amount of weight over ideal weight. Ideal weights are published in the Metropolitan Life Insurance height-weight tables. These tables display weight ranges for small, medium, and large frame sizes. Ideal weight is considered to be the maximum weight in the large frame size range. To calculate the percentage of excess weight loss (%EWL) divide weight lost by maximum excess weight and multiply by 100. The tables include one inch of height for shoes, so an inch needs to be added to actual height to see the correct weight range. (source)

According to the Metropolitan Life Insurance height weight table, my weight for height (5'8") and frame (small) is a range of: 126-139 lbs. So, my "ideal weight" is 139 lbs. BUT if you look above, ideal weight is the maximum weight in the large frame size range - 146-167 lbs. Therefore, my "ideal weight" for this calculation is 167 lbs.
 
Calculating the percentage of excess weight loss is divide the weight lost by the maximum excess weight and multiply by 100. (OMG, keep in mind this reminds me of one of those Tim is running this fast and Suzie is running that fast, but this happens and that happens, so who gets there first things...so, it is highly likely that I have screwed this up!!!)
  • Divide weight lost = 105 lbs (234 lbs max weight - 129 lbs = 105 lbs)
  • Maximum excess weight = 67 lbs (234 lbs max weight - 167 lbs ideal weight)
  • Multiply by 100
  • EWL Answer: 156.7% ---I think, please see "OMG" note above. HA!
OK, great, but let's use a more realistic calculation for me using the high end that matches my frame size.
  • Divide weight lost = 105 lbs (234 lbs max weight - 129 lbs = 105 lbs)
  • Maximum excess weight = 95 lbs (234 lbs max weight - 139 lbs ideal weight)
  • Multiply by 100
  • EWL Answer: 110.5%
I think this one is a more accurate measurement for me.

From the same source, it says: "the range reported by the best published Gastric Banding studies worldwide, which generally show about 60% EWL after 2-3 years."
 
Anyway, I thought it was interesting and answered the question for me. Try it, you might find based on how the "experts" calculate EWL that you are much further along than you thought!

I'm a little verklempt from all this math, please.talk amongst yourselves...or in the comments!

Tuesday, March 29, 2011

Half Marathon Final Thoughts

Things that made me go hmmmmm....
  • Portas - OMG, they were gross. I am sure the late arrival didn't help. But my friend said the ones at the parking lot to get the shuttle would have less of a line. So, I go in and hold my breath. Not going to get into the details, let me just tell you the porta was disgusting. Ironically, we waited in line and when we got to the race location sure enough no line and portas as far as the eye could see.
  • Cheerleaders - Being your own cheerleader is great, but having even one person along the race route sure makes a difference. It gave me something to focus on and it was just neat to see his smiling face.
  • Tangents - If you don't "run the tangents" you are going to run farther, because that's how the course is measured. Uh, I realized that I wasn't running them and didn't correct this for a while, so that's why my race ended up being 13.2 instead of 13.1.
  • Mind - I think I may have figured out how to work with my mind this race. Which is a big big accomplishment! I just can't let myself "get in my head". Checking in with myself just doesn't work for me. What works is to focus on things outside of myself and repeating a postive mantra (you've got this) throughout the event if I starting leaning towards getting in my head.
  • Enjoy the event - I really did take the time to check out all the neat scenery on the route, the spectators' signs, and the bands along the way. While I checked my Garmin now and then early in the race, it was to ensure that my pace wasn't too fast. Favorite signs: "You're made of Tiger Blood! You can do this!"; "Free Ipad 2's at the finish line while supplies last - HURRY!"
  • Be fearless - As stupid as this sounds, for me this meant to get over race time. It was to "be fearless" of the clock and the time it displayed. Hmmm, typing that it's triggering similarities to the scale. Giving my power to the scale like giving power to the clock and telling me if my race was "good" or not. My goal for the race was to finish, enjoy it, and be able to return to bootcamp without recovery time. Checked the boxes on all three. And it was also pointed out by multiple people (including the trainers at camp) that not having done a half in almost 20 years that this was a very respectable time.
  • Let your inner athlete out - This was what probably reads as my cocky attitude of "you've got this". It really isn't, it was my tool for stopping negative talk. I could have EASILY allowed all of my doubts to overtake me, but I didn't. I told myself to believe, that all my hard work will pay off, and that in my own way I am an athlete and I was letting her out!
Final thought: I believe that everyone has an inner athlete. Yes everyone, including YOU! It doesn't matter what others say or the experts, it's achieving your goals whether that's finishing a 5K in under an hour or a marathon. Be proud of what you set out to do, be fearless, strong, and let that inner athlete out! GO YOU! : )

Tracking for last week:
  • 5 bootcamps and 1 half (13.2 miles) - calories: 4520.
.....hmmmmm, so what's next????

Sunday, March 27, 2011

You look fast...(race recap)

I went to the expo on Friday with my husband. Honestly, I thought there would be more stuff (both free swag and booths in general). I did end up getting a headband (needed a wicking one) and some beans, but we were in and out pretty quickly. I am sure that Saturday was a total nightmare. 

Saturday was a rest day. I did chores around the house and kept busy to keep my mind off the race. We also went to see a movie "Lincoln Lawyer" which received very good reviews, but we left wondering why. I went to bed at my normal time and had my alarm set for 5am to get up and have something to eat. I figured if we left the house at 6am we would be fine.

I got up and got dressed. My husband (who was going to cheer me on) slept a bit longer. When he got up and saw me, he said to me "you look fast in that outfit". Boy, was that the most perfect thing to say or what?

I threw on a long sleeve shirt over the top and he asked about moving my number to that shirt. You should have seen his face when I said I am going to throw it on the side of the course somewhere between mile 1 and 2. He didn't know that people do that throughout the race. I wore something that was too big and kinda worn out at this point for donation. Best thing - now I need a replacement top, right? : )

We get to where we were 1 mile from the exit we need and we hit this:


20 minutes and we moved about 20 car lengths. It was now less than an hour from the race start time. Another 20 minutes and we are finally moving. I was getting stressed, but figured there was no way the shuttles were going to strand racers in the village area.

We got parked and made our way to the shuttles. This was easily a quarter mile, but I used it as my warm up. Porta stop (more on that later) and we get on the bus. We arrive at the race start after corrals were already starting to cross the start line. My corral was the next one to go, so I hustled it up toward the starting line and started walking with the others. My husband caught up and gave me a kiss, said you are going to do awesome, have fun, and see you at the halfway point.

I felt great. The weather was perfect and the course went through some really neat parts of town. I was so excited my husband was waiting for me at the halfway point. 5 miles went by in no time, then 6, and somewhere between 6 and 7 there was my husband! I went over, gave him a kiss, and kept on going. He said I looked like I was just on a short jog and looked like I had a ton of energy. Thanks for that husband!

The entire race I did not let myself get into my head. I enjoyed the scenery, the bands, and just listened to my body. I just kept thinking "You've got this. Enjoy the race and take it easy."

There it was! 10 miles. Only a 5K to go. "You've got this. Keep going. You're fine." Around the corner and there was the finish line! It was hard to know my time as I didn't see the clock when I started the race, but I told myself that as long as I finished under 2:30, I was going to be happy.

My time: 2:15. I had so much gas in the tank the last 4 miles of the race, I know I *could* have had a faster time, but you know what? It doesn't matter. What matters is I did it, I had FUN, and I know that I will achieve my main goal of returning to camp tomorrow with no recovery day needed.

I have some other thoughts, but I'll get those in another post. Here's a pic of the shirt and medal.

NSV - I requested a small shirt. When I went to pick it up at the expo, the guy looked at me and the ticket and said, you won't be happy with a small. Let me give you an extra small.

Front of shirt and medal

This thing could double as a weapon.

Back of shirt. It's the neatest part in my opinion. It is in the middle running top to bottom.

Thursday, March 24, 2011

Thwack! Thwack! Thwack!...and a mule!

What's that noise? Thwack! Thwack! Duck? Nope. It's a rubberband that I found to remind myself of this post. It's not really that I am using it to "thwack" myself as much as I am using it as a visual reminder of all the positive thoughts I am implanting in my brain.

Rest assured my bloggy pals, this race is gonna happen and I am going to finish it! My bff doesn't call me Francis for nothing. I've earned that name! I am stubborn as all get out, just like Francis the mule.

Thanks for all the encouraging comments! I'm off to the expo tomorrow. I'm hoping to get lots of free STUFF! My husband is going with me which is super great because that means double the free stuff...for me!!

Wednesday, March 23, 2011

Note To Self

Shut the hell up! You are psyching yourself out and it's not even Sunday yet. In fact, you idiot, you did 12 miles the other weekend and were just fine, remember? The next day you went to camp and were fine. You even completed the 12 at a more than respectable pace (even though this race is NOT about time). 13.1 miles with the company of 8 million of your closest friends (ha) is going to get you through on adrenaline alone. Get O-V-E-R yourself and knock it OFF.

See the list below? You are releasing these negative thoughts into blog land---throwing them out and away. If you find yourself thinking them, you will slap yourself upside the head immediately. (I wish I had one of those wide rubber bands to wear and FLICK myself every time I have a thought. I've heard that works.)
So here goes:
  • Thought: Man, all this rest is going to hurt me. REALITY: Um, so the 123 million experts out there that say the rest the week before are WRONG? Um, no. And, add to that you are still doing 5 bootcamps and 2 short runs. Get over it. It's not like you are sitting around doing nothing.
  • Thought: Man, I'm tired. REALITY: No you aren't. You are mentally saying that, but your routine this week is no different than any other week. Quit it!
  • Thought: Man, the weather doesn't look good. REALITY: HELLO? It's Texas. You won't know the weather until the morning of the race. It changes all the time. Quit looking at the weather and just have your two weather outfits ready to go.
  • Thought: Man, I don't think I can do this. REALITY: Yes you CAN. If you are honest with yourself you are deep down worrying about time and what "others" might think. You told yourself this isn't about time or others. It's about not hating the experience---maybe even *shudder* having F-U-N---and being able to return to camp the following day.
Bottom line: You CAN do this. Your legs WILL show up. You ARE prepared. YOU have to be your best cheerleader.

4 days until the race...translation: 4 more days of anxiety and whining.

Monday, March 21, 2011

Interesting?

Here's an article that essentially says that complications are likely with the band. I'm not sure if it's "interesting" or not, but I couldn't think of a title! My reaction to it is that it seems like a very limited study and makes me wonder if is it statistically relevant or not. Regardless, I thought I'd share.

Content from referenced link above.
By Frederik Joelving
NEW YORK
Mon Mar 21, 2011 4:45pm EDT

NEW YORK (Reuters Health) - An older kind of Lap-Band weight-loss surgery could lead to severe complications over the long haul, Belgian researchers said Monday.

The surgery works by placing a silicone band around the top portion of the stomach to restrict food intake. It has become an increasingly popular option in the battle against obesity, but some experts have worried about its safety.

The Belgian team found that as many as half their patients, followed for at least 12 years, needed to have the band removed in that period. And in more than a quarter, the band had gnawed its way through the wall of the stomach.

"The high failure rate of (Lap-Band surgery), at least in our hands, could be detrimental to its future continued widespread use as a restrictive weight loss operation," Dr. Jacques Himpens of the Saint Pierre University Hospital in Brussels and colleagues write in the Archives of Surgery.

"This is what I was worried about," said Dr. Mary Brandt, who heads the pediatric surgical program at Texas Children's Hospital in Houston and has criticized the Lap-Band surgery before.

"I think these data support my opinion that lap band is not the right operation for adolescents," she told Reuters Health in an email.

According to Allergan -- the Irvine, California-based company that makes the Lap-Band system -- its product has been used in more than 500,000 procedures worldwide. It commands more than two-thirds of a $300 million to $400 million market.

In an email to Reuters Health, Allergan criticized the new study and said both the surgical technique and the Lap-Band itself had changed in the interim.

It also noted that the study was based on only 151 patients from a single hospital, and that the researchers had only been able to test half of those patients.

"We are disappointed to see the publication of an ill-constructed, single-center clinical assessment that does not meet the high clinical standards one should expect from peer-reviewed data, and is not reflective of today's clinical standards," Cathy Taylor, Allergan's director of Corporate Communications, said.

Dr. Marc P. Michalsky, surgical director for the Center for Healthy Weight and Nutrition at Nationwide Children's Hospital in Columbus, Ohio, seconded the criticism.

"In some ways it is a bit of a historic snapshot of this type of surgery 15 years ago," he said. "I would take these results with a grain of salt."

On average, the patients in the study lost about 43 percent of their excess weight -- a number that was outpaced by the gold standard weight-loss surgery, called gastric bypass.

Four out of every ten patients in the study suffered a major complication of the surgery, such as the band going into the stomach or the stomach pouch enlarging. Overall, six in ten patients ended up on the operating table again.

In 2009, more than 220,000 Americans had some type of weight loss surgery, at a price of about $20,000 per patient, according to the American Society for Metabolic and Bariatric Surgery.

"I don't think there's one operation that is good for everybody," Michalsky said. "It really boils down to a combination of considerations by the surgeon and the patient."

SOURCE: bit.ly/9qX5ZA Archives of Surgery, March 21, 2011.

Sunday, March 20, 2011

Sunday with a "Fun"

Today was "Funday" not Sunday. I had the pleasure of meeting Beth Ann who you can find here. She has done - A-MAZING. I have to tell you between us that picture on her profile - doesn't do her justice! She is way cuter and thinner in person.

We grabbed a nice cup of soup at the food court and chatted. Then we went around the mall to find a "going out" outfit for Beth Ann. She has had many recent NSV's and I got to be there while she had another one! She easily fit in clothes in all the shops we went to. I am positive she is going to have a great time next weekend with her sorority sisters and they are going to agree she looks great. Needless to say, she's also a really nice, accomplished, and intelligent gal!

It was a pleasure meeting Beth Ann and I hope we get together again.

Saturday, March 19, 2011

Thoughts on this post

So Read posted this post. I might have even read Read's wrong or interpreted it incorrectly, but this is what I have thought about since I read it a few days ago...

Would my relationship with my husband change if I went back to where I was? For me, this is an easy answer. I think it definitely would. My husband has only known me as I am now, so I think that would make it very hard on him---and, that's meant in no negative way toward him at all. Hmmm, how to explain what I mean. I guess I know that not only would I be fat - which I think he wouldn't find attractive - but I think I would be sad and depressed like I was which would be a beat down for him. I wouldn't be the person I am now physically OR mentally.

Do I want to go back? Does anyone? I didn't think so! Either do I. And I also think could I? And, I can say no. I had hit such a pit of despair that it has left such a scar on me (and some scare too!) that gaining 105 lbs. back is just not something I can do, nor will I allow myself to. I am so much happier and feel so much better, it just isn't an option.

Fat thoughts? Yes, we're women. I think it's unfortunately whether it's a sex thing (hormones anyone?) or an environment thing, I have them now and then. Put on an outfit - dang, this makes me look fat. Start a day - dang, I feel fat. While I have been working on changing the words to things like this outfit is not flattering to me and man I feel bloated today or something "non-fat" related, the thoughts still surface now and then.

Thin thoughts? For me, I am trying to change this as well. Much like fat, I don't want thin or skinny in the mix either. It's a mental thing. For me healthy, strong, lean --- those sorts of words --- work better.

Did this journey and losing the weight magically made my life better? I think what made my life better was the by product - the mental aspect, feeling better, and all that other stuff. It has equipped me to handle life stress as it surfaces. So, in reality the stress is still there, but how I react or the choices I make are better. I think a large aspect of that is making "me" things a priority. I am fully commited to living the best and healthiest life I can...and have a heck of a lot of fun while doing it!

Since I've finished my long training run and planning tomorrow as an "off" day, here's a recap of last week:
  • 0 bootcamps, 1 exercise class & 2 training run (14.5 miles) - calories: 1486 (Oops, kinda low. Oh well!)

Friday, March 18, 2011

Yes, it still happens...

I met a friend at a gym we both belong to for a barbell group class. Neither of us had tried the class before, but we figured what the hell. We admitted we were a bit intimidated as it's relatively new, but we looked at it as an opprotunity to test our fitness.

We get there and we knew there was all this "setup" that was required, so we told the instructor that we were new, what would we need, etc. She tells us that since this is our first class we should put 2.5 lb plates on our bar. That's not a typo - no asking us about our fitness level or anything. We looked at one another, shrugged, and said OK.

We went and "loaded" up our bar and I said to my friend we are going to throw these through the ceiling. So, we saw some chicks that seemed like they were our fitness level and loaded to 35 lbs with multiple plates as we knew we'd be doing lower and upper body.

The victory for both of us was after class we said that we could have easily put another 20 lbs on the bar for the max weight work as my max heart rate only hit 145 for a short period of time  and we completed all exercises and reps easily with no modifications. We felt good, strong, and honestly validated that our fitness routine is paying off!

Then, I got home. We had decided we would meet up with some friends at a bar for St. Pat's for a bit. I was overly hungry and in a rush. I had made traditional corned beef, cabbage, potatoes, and carrots. At this point, with essentially nothing in my band (.2) I can eat whatever. I just always watch the amount and do the basics.

So, what did I do? I ate totally mindlessly. The portion was the right amount, but I ate way too fast and paid no attention to the size of the bites so that I could get ready and we could get going. BAD MOVE! And, it was a sneak up attack. I felt totally fine. Then on the drive to the bar I knew that something was up. OMG, I was SOOOO miserable!!! It was visible to my husband and my friends that I was not feeling well. I then suffered in silence for TWO frickin' hours. Oh well, just shows even this far out that bad habits can still surface.

Thursday, March 17, 2011

Wellness Goals - better late than never

So, I've been thinking that I should put together some goals for 2011. Hey, better late than never, right? I've come up with some rough ideas and thought I'd jot them down. I'll have to see if they make sense or not though....um, cause I haven't put a whole ton of thought into it, I've never set wellness goals really before since starting this journey, and they need to be S.M.A.R.T (specific, measurable, attainable, realistic and timely).

Man, I'm also going to have to go back and figure out what I have done so far in 2011. Oh well, I'm leaving that for another day. Procrastination at its best!

2011 Wellness Goals

Boot camps. Goal: 200 camps. Stretch Goal: 240.
I'm not quite sure how many camps are offered in a year. I'm going to have to look at this one a bit closer. The goal is pretty much 5 days of camp a week when camp is offered---taking out a bit for vacation. The stretch is based on taking a couple extra camps a week and I've included it more in case of error in the base calculation. I don't want to make this sound complex, cause it's kind of pull it outta my butt approach, but I need some detail so I know how the hell I came up with it when in July I say "what the hell was I thinking?".

Training/Race Total Miles. Goal: 416 miles.  Stretch Goal: 520 miles.
The goal is calculated at 8 miles per week for the year. Then the stretch goal is calculated at 10 miles per week.

Half Marathon(s). Goal: 1. Stretch Goal: 2.
As I go on and on and oooonnn about, I am already doing one, but I am tossing around the idea of doing another. I'll talk about that though after I survive this first one.

5K or other races such as obstacle races. Goal: 3. Stretch Goal: 5.
My goal is probably too low here. I've already completed 1 5K. I've signed up for the Texas Chicken Run, and know I am going to do a 5K in August. I might have to up this one a bit. Oh, the chicken run - it's obstacles. I am going to be SCARED on some of them as I am not a fan of heights at all, but go look at the site. Check out the hat you get for doing it???? Yep, had to do it for the hat. (Plus a bunch of friends are doing it. Peer pressure anyone?)

Calorie Burn. Goal: 130,000 Stretch Goal: 150,000
This one may be one that I should toss out the window. It's 500 calories x 5 days a week x 52 weeks. The stretch goal....cause it was a cool number? I just picked it out of the air.

Notice something? No. Weight. Loss. Goal. First! Time! Ever!...I'm not even going to put in maintain my weight or anything weight related because hitting my wellness goals and eating well most of the time will ensure success. Hmmm, but maybe I should have a goal in there like: Make healthy choices most of the time? 90%? I don't know, I'll have to think on that. I think I'll just treat this like work --- see how I'm tracking mid-year and tweak as needed.

Other items:
  • The days off I had really made me fly on my run. I am a believer of tapering big time now. I got out there - supposed to do an easy 4 miles. Felt good and looked at my pace - wow, fast (for me). Finished the 4 and had so much gas left and since I hadn't worked out the two days before, jogged another easy one. It felt good.
  • Eating acknowledged and addressed. Slowing myself down and asking myself am I eating because I'm hungry? And some of the basic tools I've used along the way.
  • Overall stress seems to be down. Hmmm, could it be the working out and not eating crap? I vote yes.

Wednesday, March 16, 2011

Houston, we have the start of a problem...

From Wikipedia:

"Tapering, in the context of sports, refers to the practice of reducing, or tapering off, exercise in the days just before an important competition. Tapering is customary in many endurance sports, such as the marathon, athletics and swimming. For many athletes, a significant period of tapering is essential for optimal performance. The tapering period frequently lasts as much as a week or more."

Hmmmm, I don't think tapering off means NOT working out since the long run on Sunday. Especially as it is two weeks out from the race. My schedule is messed up this week and with the added bonus of the time change I am just out of whack. This is definitely not part of my planned taper which is really next week and still involves some short runs and bootcamp.

But I am trying not to sweat it. (Ha, I haven't been have I?) I am just going to pick it up today and make it a priority to get a run in and ensure I do the last longer run this weekend. I have to trust my training that I've done that I'm ready, but the mental aspect of this upcoming race is looming out there.

I can feel this underlying stress inside of me from a number of things---the half is just an added stresser right now. It's also reflected in my eating, which while not horrible, hasn't been particularly good either since about Saturday. In hindsight, I realize that I have been eating when I am not really hungry and having more treats. It's not the end of the world, but it's important that I call myself out on this trend so it doesn't continue. It's funny, but while I know it's not possible by what I have eaten, I feel like I am 10 lbs heavier and just blah. Proof that for me eating well does a body good!

Monday, March 14, 2011

Spring

I love Spring, but I don't like "springing forward". Why?
  • It's dark too late in the morning.
  • It takes time for my body to adjust to the change in sleep patterns. Which usually ends up throwing off eating and exercise and providing everyone the joy of being around some grumpiness.
  • And, basically I think it's crap. Just sayin'. I vote for picking either daylight or standard and sticking to it. Arizona and Hawaii are smart---they just opt out. (And with a quick search looks like China, Japan, and India do as well.)
Are you a lover or a hater of daylight savings times?

A side note: The destruction across the world either from earthquakes, fires, floods, or tsunamis has really been weighing on me. What I saw on the news was horrific in Japan and the continued nuclear challenges only appear to be making things worse. I can't even put it into words what I think/feel, but I thought I should at least make mention of it. My husband is on alert and may start flying there with supplies in the next few weeks. We are waiting to see if he gets orders or not.

Sunday, March 13, 2011

Throwing it out

It's funny, but throwing it out into the universe of blogland really works for me. (Thanks Read and Justawallflower for checking in!) After hitting publish I thought, "Well, now I have to just go do it." I got my gear on and hit the road. It was hot, humid, and windy, but 12 miles later --- my longest training run was done!

A recap of last week:
  • 6 bootcamps & 1 training run (12 miles) - calories: 4881.

Must. Go. Run!

I have no idea what my problem is. Slump? Funk? Stress? Anxiety? Something. I put off my long run yesterday and here it is nearly 12:30pm and I haven't gone out and done it. It's my last long run before tapering and it's only 14 days before the half. Bottom line: I. Must. Go. Run.

I figured throwing it out here in blogland would be the added push that I needed to get my lazy butt going. If you don't see a post that I did the run either later today or tomorrow, please be sure to get on my butt!!!

Thursday, March 10, 2011

Aquariums rock!

This past weekend we decided at the last minute to go to the aquarium. We were there when the doors open, so there weren't many people there yet. We had a great time wandering around and trying to find the critters when they were hiding. Cause everyone else is doing it, I took a few pics.

OK, I am going to confess something....sea horses freak me out. I can't figure out why. There were all sorts of them there, but every time I looked closely at them I'd shudder!
Penguins are an all time favorite of mine! A couple were hiding out - just not in the mood for visitors I guess. But Mr. Penguin in the middle was showing off and doing a show of how purty he is. I loved the guy that was lounging on the tree enjoying the sun though.
I could not believe the vivid color on these flamingos! The picture definitely does not do them justice.
Then I saw DORY! And I got all excited. My husband looked at me and said, "uh, who is Dory?". Who is Dory? Really?!? 
Frogs. Lots of frogs, but these were particularly neat. 
Then my FAVORITE! Manatees!!! I don't really know why I like them so much. I think it's their demeanor and how they just do da do along. I laughed when the one came cruising by on his back!

I am feeling tired this week. I think the raging hormones are contributing to this, so I cut back a bit on my workouts. I have my longest training run this weekend---11 miles. I am trying to get my mind in a good place about it. There's a 15K race that I could swap (I think - 9.3 miles), but my concern is that I'm an idiot and I might "race". So, I'm still thinking about what's best...17 days!!!

Wednesday, March 09, 2011

And it continues!!

I swear it has gotten worse! Here's what I saw when I walked in the door of the grocery store yesterday evening: BAM! Big candy display...stacked with my favorites...la la la - I do NOT see you. (Me and Sam have the eye closing in common!)

Heading toward produce....safe? It should be, right? But, NOPE! BAM! Hoste$s GREEN snowballs and other items - what the hell? This area is supposed to be a SAFE zone people! (Not a fan of the snowballs, but illustrates the madness!)

This aisle, that aisle, end of aisle: BAM! BAM! BAM! C-R-A-P! (aka - chocolate crack as pointed out by FitBy40). And don't forget the nearly TWO foot high CHOCOLATE bunny by the checkout area. Not kidding. I should have taken a picture or bit his bunny ass off!

People, if I could just skip the grocery store until May, I would! ...Anyone a personal grocery shopper???? Sounds like there may multiple opportunities as Island Bandit is feeling the same!

I am starting to suspect that it is fake TOM that is making this so bad. Damn you hormones!!!! .... I'm not hungry. Seriously, because I don't want anything remotely good for me, I just want CRAP!

It will pass, it will pass....*sigh*....and I will quit posting about stupid crap candy too. : ) But first, let me plant an annoying song in your head that I can't get out of mine, you can thank me later...

Oh! Here comes Peter Cottontail
Hoppin down the bunny trail
Hippity Hoppin, Easter's on its way
(Gene Autry - Peter Cottontail)

Tuesday, March 08, 2011

Mmmmm, Candy!

Close your eyes or skip this post if you don't want to see candy pics!!!

All those "special" displays! Why oh why does the Easter candy have to be in the stores so early??? I can't seem to escape the it even with avoiding the "special" aisles.

I love the Cadbury's eggs with the hard shells and the little Reese's PB eggs. (You guys can keep those Peeps - YUCK! I have yet to figure out why people like them so much.)

I think my best bet is to continue with my tactic of "I don't see you---la la la". The "oh get some and just have a few" approach just does not work with these two items. I've decided that if I still want them when Easter rolls around that I'll have them on Easter. That way they'll be gone from the stores after that!

Hey, is it Easter yet? : )

Monday, March 07, 2011

Last week recap

Man, only 20 days until my half!

Just a short post to recap last week for tracking.
  • 4 bootcamps & 1 training run (10.5 miles) - calories: 3523.
Here's to a week of mostly healthy choices!

Saturday, March 05, 2011

Worst...Run...Ever!

The day started early with getting my husband's lunch together to leave for a flight. He did some flight planning before he left and told me that there may be rain this morning where we live, so I should check before I left for my run. He left and I finished my coffee, ate a Clif Bar, and started getting ready. Sure enough, I checked the radar and rain was coming through, but would be clear at 11am.

In typical Texas fashion, while the radar looked like what I have, none of the rain actually appeared. *Sigh*

I have bad days just like everyone else. This run was not shaping up well. At this point, the distance runs are mental for me. My body can do it, but at times my mind gets in the way.

I took off on my run and it was going fine. But that changed quickly. I don't know if it was the stress I've been under this week which has impacted my sleep, some hanging on marriage crap, or what. Bottom line - this run sucked.

I looked down and I had only gone 1.5 miles and it seriously felt like 5. Then my mind really kicked in with a bunch of negative crap. Negative crap about a number of things. I just kept going, but at about mile 5ish as I passed a bench, I hit pause on my Garmin and sat down. I sat there for a few minutes having a cry. I just have a bunch of crap going on and I guess this brought it to the surface.

I was going to go home and say screw this training run. But I decided to just walk for a bit and see how it went. I was torn. I wanted to go home, but I also didn't want to give up on this training run (and myself). Did it get better? A bit. I can't say that I enjoyed the run, but I was proud of myself for finishing it. 10.5 miles later I was done. Surprisingly my pace was only off by about 10 minutes.

I guess my title is an exaggeration. It wasn't my run worst ever, it's better characterized as hard. But while hard, I finished it. That's what is important.