Thursday, April 18, 2013


Someone said to me the other day at camp, "you are just so motivated." I've been thinking about it in the back of my mind ever since. It just bugged me. Not in a bad way, just in a why the heck doesn't that sound right to me way.

I'm not motivated. I think I was when I started this journey. I was extremely motivated to lose weight and make necessary changes to keep it off. That motivation kept me focused on making good choices, exercising, and working on the mental me. But now, I'm not motivated. I am committed though.

I'm committed to exercising because I should and I can. Most days I'm not motivated at all and I'd rather sleep in. I just suck it up and go.

I'm committed to making good food choices most of the time. Frequently I don't want to and continue to fight the inner fluffy me that wants, and oh so loves, crap food. But I'm committed to staying off the slippery slope.

So, I'm committed, but not so motivated...I think that's alright though.

Monday, April 08, 2013

2013 1st Quarter (non) Results

I used to track my food and my weight and dumped both of those at some point along my journey. Now after two years of tracking my wellness goals I'm ditching tracking that too.

I haven't fallen off the wagon or gained weight (well my clothes fit fine). It's just part of my journey. It's been approximately 7.5 years and I'm trying to continue to progress. My goals: not obsessing about my weight, what I'm eating, or how much I'm moving. I don't think anyone's journey is the same, goals are different, and it takes a lot of hard work to figure out what works along the way and for me, to recognize when something is no longer working and change it.

Tracking was becoming a P.I.T.A, something I was forgetting to do, and much like food tracking and definitely the scale it was adding stress. Who doesn't have enough stress that is out of your direct control that adding to it yourself is just a little crazy? :)

Since the year started, I've been at boot camp a minimum of 5 times a week, I've gone for a run when I felt like it, completed some races with friends because they were doing them, and finished a half marathon. So, in reflection, I'm pretty much tracking to my goals, just not tracking them. This is working for me now, so I'm going to keep working it. I doubt I'll post much, but I will plan to post something every quarter.